Hello world. The following was written 09/12/2026.
During my conversations with our brothers these past weeks, the Holy Spirit kept repeating, “God is your shield, not your judge and jury. He does not give you abilities to be ashamed of or persecuted for. God does not see you as less than. God sees you as His EQUAL for you were made in HIS IMAGE with ALL of His abilities to manifest and create. As a Sovereign Being you choose who and what you shall be. You get to choose for you. God accepts you no matter your choices to believe. God’s LOVE is UNCONDITIONAL and always has been.”
I was taught to believe God’s love was conditional on my obedience, conformity and adherence to whatever those who stated they were the authority dictated I was to think, believe, see, say and do. I was also taught to believe all forms of love and acceptance were conditional too.
What I was taught is to judge and be judged and to accept those judgments as real, true and defining who I am and am to be and what the world is and all within it are. I was taught I was REQUIRED to do these things or I would be punished, ostracized, persecuted and even killed if I did not comply.
When I walked away from the church and religion as a whole, I placed myself in the Holy Spirit’s hands as Jesus was asking me to. I was 14 years old when he came to me and asked me to do this. I had just spent a month talking to court appointed psychiatrist because my landlord tried to rape me and my Mom’s roommate walked in and stopped him.
Of the 5 psychiatrists, only one told me I didn’t do anything wrong. The rest tried to get me to believe I made it all up, was lying, deserved it and asked for it. They also told me I should have stayed silent. I learned at a young age to not trust and to question one’s intentions from that.
What I witnessed and experienced with those psychiatrists was the same things I witnessed and experienced with the church and with my own family. Each were using what they believed and were taught as tools to manipulate, coerce and control. Each were gaslighting and abusing their positions of authority. Then I realized there is an inner to outer micro to macro form of manifestation occurring via the Individual into the Collective Whole of Humanity. As the Individual chooses so to does the Collective via their examples.
Then another realization of why it is the powers that be do not want the Individual to think for themselves or to be able to do for themselves. They would lose all credibility and ability to manage so control the Masses effectively if at all if the Masses were to see the Individual choosing differently. It is why they are so insidiously subversive in demeaning, shadow banning, censoring and cancelling any who are not falling in line, similar to the juror being doxed on main stream media now.
A brother has been sharing The Book of Psalms, and asking questions of the materials. I have been guided to respond with the understandings given me and to use examples from my own life experiences.
A brother asks, “Vengeance is mine, says the Lord…. so what’s the problem with asking for his will to be done???”
My response, “Brother you answered your own question. Vengeance is MINE, Sayeth the Lord. It does not say The Lord’s vengeance is YOURS. The Lord is not there to do your bidding or will, you are here to do the Lord’s. His WILL comes in HIS TIME and not ours and it may not look as we would wish or want it to. Therein lays the difference between His Will and yours and what you want or deem appropriate for vengeance.
Prime example of what I believed and wanted to happen to those who beat me, raped me, molested and even killed me was, for each of them to be castrated, limbs removed, disemboweled and while still alive a mill stone hung around their necks and thrown into the deepest part of the sea. I wanted them to suffer unimaginable pain before dying. That was my will and wish, NOT GOD’s. To wish and want such suffering on another is the antithesis to all GOD is, stands for and extends. I was in judgment and could not see clearly what I was asking for. In asking for another to experience such I was asking for myself to experience it. I had to forgive them and myself for wanting what I was.
By the way, most of those who trespassed against me did experience unimaginable pain before they died and those still living are in the throes of it. In this respect it was God’s Will and I had nothing to do with what they experience. They incurred their own karmic energy so are paying the price for all they chose and did. When I forgave them and forgave myself, I healed the cancers I incurred in karmic energy from what I asked for and wanted them to experience. I understand now fully what Jesus meant when He stated, “Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do.”.”
As I watch the vitriol being spewed by my brothers, the Truth of what they do without knowing what they do is saddening and horrifying. Watching my brothers celebrate the death of another, destruction of another or a group, their active wishing for the harm of another. Each of them are asking God and the Universe to let them experience a form of pain and suffering similar to the one they would wish such upon.
The Holy Spirit and God were shielding me, protecting me from the nightmares my brothers were accepting and believing in using my dyslexia and synesthesia to block me from accepting the lies. Helping me understand when something was being held back or not said. Recognizing one’s intentions and emotional state were connected. Helping me understand the masks and false facades my brothers place before them to hide their intentions and the karmic energy they are and have been incurring for themselves.
Our circumstances do not matter. What matters is our state of being. What we are thinking, believing and judging our circumstances to be shall have an effect on us mentally, emotionally and physically. It is a choice we are making consciously and unconsciously to judge whatever is occurring, wanting it to be different than it is. Sometimes, the circumstance we are lamenting, is what is needed to clear the way for something better.
A clarification in understanding is being given me regarding these world religions. What they are and have been teaching is obedience, conformity, adherence, judgment and that acceptance from GOD is conditional, which is the opposite of GOD. What is being taught are the wants, desires, judgements and persecutions based on what MAN BELIEVES and would have all be. Man is and has been teaching the exact opposite of ALL God IS and have been limiting Humanity purposefully.
This is why we have so many begging for the harm of another. They have accepted blindly without question what the darkest aspects of man is telling them and teaching them to think, want, say and do. My brothers have forgotten they are responsible for all they choose and do. They have forgotten they shall incur karmic bounce back from their choices and actions AND they will not get a choice in how it comes to them either. And these days, karma is hitting pretty darn quickly.
Please be the Light, I see you to be. Please be the Light, I know you to be. Please be the Light, you are meant to be. Please choose, to be the Light.
Blessings on thy journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.