Tomorrow becomes today, which becomes yesterday.

Hello world. The following was written 1/14/2016.

My feet are firmly planted, in both worlds. I am the conduit, in which the energy flows and the message, is delivered. I am the tool used, to connect one to another and complete, the circle. I am the channel the message flows through, to get to you, the receiver.

In an instant, our lives can change. Yet, we sit here day in and day out, stumbling along blindly. Not seeing the people, we are surrounded by. Not seeing anything, of the world around us. Instead, we are focused on a world, within our own minds. A world of guilt, shame, blame and fear. A world of things, we are taught to want and desire. A world filled, with pain and suffering. A world of, take and never give. A world of, manipulations. We are trained from the moment of birth, to see this world and only this world. To accept and do what we are told, with no questions being asked.

I find myself considering many things, I am being shown. As I have mentioned before, there has been some drama within my family. My mother, is going into surgery tomorrow. She is considered, a high risk patient. In the last five years, she has been in and out of the hospital and under a knife around 26 times. Almost all of them in one year. She has battled cancer, and won. Yet, the medicines used, have caused her liver, kidneys, and gall bladder to start failing and her bones to deteriorate. Complicating matters, is a hernia shoved into her upper abdomen, the last time she was worked on and left there. All these things combined, is what is making this surgery a necessity.

This drama being played out within my family, has had some powerful effects. I am sitting here looking at the possibility, I may never see my mother again. My mother called me tonight to tell me, she loves me. She accepts my husband and she has always loved me, unconditionally. It felt as if my mother, was telling me goodbye. Yet, in my heart I have no fear, playing in a corner of my mind. In looking at this, I am seeing it as it is with acceptance, of whatever the outcome may be.

My mother has been suffering, for a very long time. This surgery will increase, her quality of life. Of this, I have no doubts. Yet, I also recognize, she may not want to continue on either. For she has suffered, for so very long. I have tried my best to ease her pain, as much as I am able too. Now, I must sit on the sidelines with my family awaiting the outcome, of what is to come.

Tomorrow becomes today, which becomes yesterday. Most of my life has been spent, dreaming of tomorrows, fearful of today’s, and pining for the past or yesterday. Wanting to redo, what cannot be undone. Lately, I am living, in the moment. Grateful for every instant, with those I love and care about. Understanding just how precious each instant truly is, to live and love fully, unconditionally.

Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.