Hello world. The following was written 4/13/2016.
Back in 2004, when I had my first motorcycle accident, my Husband and I had been discussing whether or not there were such things as Angels or Guardian Angels. I personally had a lot of doubt about them. I had no reason to think or believe there were such Beings due to all the abuses I endured growing up.
I was doing 50 mph on a curvy back road. As I came up to a left curve in the road saying 30 mph I found out my brakes had failed and my throttle was stuck. I was about to crash and die. In my own mind I was asking myself and God what do I do. I heard a Voiceless Voice then. I listened and did what The Voiceless Voice said. The Voiceless Voice told me to close my eyes and relax. I felt no fear in that moment, just comfort. I knew I was headed right at a telephone pole and a barbed wire fence with no chance to escape it. Yet, I was tossed from the bike and came to rest almost 300 feet around the curve, in the middle of the road after bouncing along drainage boulders like a rag doll.
The second time I heard The Voiceless Voice I was sitting in a wheelchair in my kitchen home alone. I was in severe pain and I couldn’t open my medicine bottles. I sat there screaming at a God I hated to get me out of the hell I was in without wading through a bunch of bullshit or I was checking out. I was done and didn’t want to live anymore. I heard The Voiceless Voice again, telling me to pay attention to everything I was taking into me on all levels. Everything being foods, medicines, words, and energy. I was taking 14 pills 4 times a day at the time. After I heard this direction I began to wean myself off of all those pills. I began changing everything I took within me. All foods were now organic as were the medicines and products used. I went from 275 lbs. to 155 lbs., as of my last doctors appointment last year. I was told I would never walk again unaided. I am now walking without aide about a 1/2 mile and sometimes more. Everything is connected to what we are choosing to believe.
Every time I have heard The Voiceless Voice I have been given some form of direction to look within me at everything I believe to be true. Everything I believe defines me and the world around me. To recognize I am making the choice and decision to believe whatever is being said to me. This Voiceless Voice comes and goes yet always I find myself listening and following what I hear from it. I do not doubt what I am being told or shown is the Truth. Each time I follow The Voiceless Voice I am healed of another disease. Each time I listen I am shown another level of understanding deeper than the last.
I went from not believing in God and His Angels to believing in them. Each experience has brought me to a deeper understanding within me of who I AM and who my brothers are as well. I would not be who I am unless I had experienced the things I have. In sharing my experiences I may help those around me heal as I have been healed. These are the things the Voice tells me.
I actually tried to argue with The Voiceless Voice once. Yes, I said once. This was all it took for me to not argue again. The Voiceless Voice kept telling me I was to be a Teacher. Telling me I am to share my Truth and help others to see what it is they are doing to themselves. I flat out refused. I stated I did not want to be anyone’s teacher, because I never want to be anyone’s student! I refuse to follow anyone for any reason. This argument continued for about a month. I kept refusing to respond to the people He would place before me. Until He placed my Husband before me. In the instant I opened my mouth to refuse I heard The Voiceless Voice yelling at me telling me I do not have a choice in this. I will be His Teacher of Teachers! Needless to say I stood there in shock. I did not expect to get yelled at.
For the last twelve years I have been listening to and following the guidance of what I am calling Angels, Holy Spirit/Higher Self or my Guides. I have been sharing anything and everything He would have me share. The things I have personally experienced and the lessons learned from them. Such as, I need not ever worry I will get cervical or ovarian cancer again. I need not fear every time they send me some notice I need to come in and get checked for any relapses. In looking at the judgments and opinions I was believing in to be true and seeing them for the lies they were my diseases vanished. I have been completely healed of them as if they never existed. All without modern medications or surgeries. My Angels have been showing me how my beliefs can heal me or kill me. The choice has always been and will always be mine and mine alone to make.
In looking at my beliefs I have found many are based off of judgments, labels and opinions taught to me. As I looked at each one and released them, I find the abilities I have learned to block for survival are coming back to me and coming back stronger. As I allow and accept without judgment I no longer feel the pain and suffering I used to. I find myself in a constant state of peace even as my Husband goes off the deep end in fear about finances I am calm within. In everything it is and will always be my choice in how I react to any given situation. Everything I experience is and will always be for my benefit and through me, my brothers benefit. I understand if I am judging anything I will be the one getting eaten at from within by fear. I do this to myself and no one is ever doing anything to me. All because I am choosing to judge something as being other than it truly is. I do this. It is all me in those moments.
Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.