Hello world. The following was written 5/14/2018.
Over the weekend I found myself dealing with a deep sense of anxiety and frustration. I was talking with Holy Spirit about all of this. I have had brothers telling me I am doing something wrong and need to conform to their dictates of how they think and believe things should be done. Told I am not allowed to share my perspectives of something with anyone for any reason. This morning I found myself responding to a brother with the following after they chose to question my sharing of an understanding of what a particular ACIM lesson was talking about.
I shared my understanding of what it was the lesson was stating with an example of how it was proven true to me by Holy Spirit. What I was sharing about was Conviction. How when we hold a Conviction something is Truth for us, it is felt by those around us and there is no longer any doubt within us no matter what it is our brothers are choosing to believe.
I have found myself being faced daily with brothers who are refusing to do the inner work needed to heal themselves. They respond to my articles and commentaries with diatribes telling me what it is I am doing wrong in their eyes and how I need to conform to what it is they are dictating is the way. They talk about concepts and ideas with no foundation or basis in how it has been proven true for them. No examples of their own personal experiences which show how these ideas play out in reality. They want followers and to be validated in their beliefs they are victims of this world they perceive.
The following was my response to this brother and their diatribes as to what they believe and think I should be doing.
My response, “Why are you concerned with what it is I am doing and or choosing to do? Maybe plain language will open your eyes, and get you to stop responding to me. You have nothing to teach me or anyone else. You are still trapped in your ego traumas you are not able to heal. Try doing the inner work needed to heal yourself. Until then FUCK OFF. You do not want to heal. All you want is to be a victim and have others validate your victim hood.
Until you can see how every experience has been of benefit to you, shut up. I am sick and tired of listening to your childish whining of whoa is me. Fuck off brother and do not come back or I may just block your whiny ass. I am sick of all of you who wont do the inner work needed to heal yourselves. All you do is bitch and scream. Say one more word on any of my articles or to me in any way and I will make sure you are fully deleted from existence. I will even enjoy removing you from the group. That is how sick and tired I am of you and all the rest.”
Over the weekend I have been contemplating my brothers refusal to turn within and begin healing themselves. I was speaking to Holy Spirit how they keep judging the messenger or the message and block themselves from hearing the messages being shared. I blocked a guy last night who kept coming at me telling me I am a Christian and a sinner and that I needed to stop selling my devils spawn views. I share the psychology behind the training we have been put through. I do not share the bible or any other religious doctrines. Today I found myself stating to this brother I will remove her from existence.
Holy Spirit is stating I am not required to stand there taking a beating from my brothers over these things they are choosing to believe in. I am allowed to remove them from my presence without shame or guilt for they are only interested in validating the lies they are telling themselves.
Trouble is I hold a feeling within me I am cutting them off from the opportunity to heal if I do block them. This feels like a catch 22. I am feeling trapped in a limbo until my brothers awaken to who they are. For I am not able to move forward without them to the next stages of our evolution.
Well now, I just blocked that brother and removed her from the group I run and blocked her from coming back in. She is not ready or willing to heal at this time. Her demands her brothers conform to her way of thinking becomes tiresome and tedious. All her and those choosing like her do is seek out reasons to pick fights and argue their point of views. They will browbeat a brother into submission just to get them to shut up for a moment. I found this morning this is not needed. I do not need to conform. I can and am able to REMOVE them from my existence.
Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.