Hello world. The following was written 09/22/2014.
I am contemplating what my purpose is and why it is we come together, in groups. Why do I feel compelled to continue down a path my brothers will judge me for choosing? Why come together and share what is experienced on my journey? Why do my brothers deny what it is I experience, as not being possible? Why do my brothers negate that which they have never experienced for themselves? Why do my brothers try to silence anyone who does not believe as they are choosing too?
Taking a time out from Awakening Together for a minute or two. Not sure if it was a glitch or I was purposefully muted, after being asked to speak on the microphone. Whatever happened when I got on the mic was a trigger for me. It brought flash backs from my childhood I am looking at deeply. Instances of being shouted down, talked over, mouth taped shut, hand over my mouth, a pillow covering my face and generally ignored as being to stupid or unimportant. Everything happens for a reason. Holy Spirit, help me to see this differently. For, I no longer want this ache I feel in my heart of being unwanted and not of value, even unto myself.
When two or more join in the common goal of finding Truth, they take on the persona of the Holy Relationship. In sharing and exchanging the lessons learned they have experienced within their lives, they help one another to discern the Truth of their own perceptions. They help each other to “change their minds” about the world they see. My goal here, is not to change the world. My goal here, is to change my own perceptions about how I view this world. Only then will I find internal as well as eternal peace of mind.
I keep asking, what is my purpose here? Why am I alive right here and right now? I have no answers. Yet, I still feel compelled to continue my spiritual journey. Feel, the answers will come. I have to be willing to receive the gifts I am to extend to others. Willingness the size of a mustard seed, has the power to move mountains and change the course of rivers. To illuminate the darkest of places and heal the invisible wounds inflicted in this world.
What is my purpose here and why do we come together? We come together to shine the Light for our brothers, so they may clear the darkness from their lives. My purpose is to heal myself and become an example of what is possible when one turns within to Holy Spirit for guidance. Each of us has a purpose. Each of us have our own lessons to learn. I am grateful to all of you for doing your parts. Because you are doing your part, it is one less lesson I must learn myself. I am willing to do my part, are you?
Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.