Hello world. The following was written 3/12/2019.
A brother responded to my article titled, “Holy Spirit states, “I await you within.”” with a question asking for clarity and understanding as to what is meant by going within. The following is my brothers question and my response to him.
My brother asks, “Within where? I’ve heard look within and variations of it for years and I don’t know if its just me but I’m not grasping what its suppose to mean or is referencing… If all is an illusion and we are not humans having a spiritual journey but rather spirits having a human journey then how can you know for certain what you perceive to be the true you is indeed you and not just an imagining of the mind… How do you know for certain that we are more than the electrical signals of the brain… I’ve been into spirituality for more than a decade and have read plenty of books watched many videos touched base with nearly every conspiracy theory that exists… And I’ve tried meditation… And it seems nothing is different than it has always been… I’m still me I’m still here and no one has definitive infallible proof of being something more than human… Idk I’m at a point where I’m about to just give up go back to Christianity and sheep it through life…”
My response, “Hello brother. What is referred to as “WITHIN” would be within your own heart and mind. What it entails is turning inward and choosing to look at what we are thinking in any given moment and questioning what it is we are thinking, where the thought came from, why it is there and why would we choose to believe it? It entails willingly looking at ALL Holy Spirit brings before you to contemplate and look at such as memories of traumatic experiences had.
It was while I was bedridden and unable to move after I wrecked my motorcycle back in 2004 Holy Spirit stepped forward when I asked for help and to show me the way out of my living hell. I was constantly thinking of suicide at my inability to move or do anything for myself. It was the constant thought of killing myself which had me calling on a God I hated and a Holy Spirit I wasn’t sure I believed in. I had been severely abused as a child being raped, molested, exorcised, caned, beaten, mentally and emotionally abused. I had my love used against me as a tool of manipulation and control. All was used to punish me. So I asked God and Holy Spirit why I was the only mistake they had made in all of creation?
When I asked Holy Spirit to stepped forward He began to show me every experience I had, had since birth and how in each one I was choosing to judge it or accept a judgment about it. During these sessions, as I said I was bedridden, I found myself detached from my physical body looking out my bodies eyes as if they were windows. I was trapped in a broken and dying body and no one could see me within it.
That experience was the last key to my understanding I am not this body but the Soul within the shell. I have died and been resuscitated over 100 times in this lifetime alone. All before I hit the age of 30. In each incident I was met by my Guides in their Light bodies and my own body was a Light Blue Light body that is translucent. Each time I died I would cross into the Light visiting the other lives I was living simultaneously as this one. My Guides would ask me what I wanted to do. Do I want to stay and continue in the life I just left, move on to a different life, choose a different path, choose a different world, change dimensions. What is it I want to choose? In each instance I chose to come back here and finish what I started.
Every ability I have, my brothers have. As I have accepted who I AM and am meant to be, each ability has opened up for me fully. As I accept the directions and guidance Holy Spirit would give me, I am given more clarity and understanding as to what is the TRUTH of this reality. When I speak of mind I am not necessarily speaking of the brain. What I am speaking to more so would be the ESSENCE of your SOUL. It also resides within the heart center of what you call your body. It is there you will feel ALL that resonates as being real and TRUE. It is also there you experience the TRUTH of the LIE as it is presented to you. You feel it in your heart what is NOT true.
Part of the going within is listening to your own thoughts and mind. Recognizing the patterns that play out on a regular basis subconsciously. It is paying attention to what you are thinking and how those thoughts are connected to your emotions which are connect to your bodies physical reactions. When you can catch your thoughts or how you are reacting, in those moment ask Holy Spirit to show why they are there, what they are for and how they are of benefit to you on your journey? It is willingly choosing to LOOK at whatever it is HOLY SPIRIT is placing before you in the moment to look at and ask questions about it instead of judging it and picking and choosing or deciding for yourself what it is YOU think it is for.
Does this explanation answer your questions? If you seek more clarity please ask so an answer may be given you.
By the way, when Holy Spirit speaks you can FEEL the difference as well as HEAR the difference within you in your HEAD. When Holy Spirit Speaks Holy Spirit uplifts you. Yet Holy Spirit does not hold back the punches and will lay the Truth bare for you to see. It is up to you to accept it and take it in. The TRUTH can hurt at first and even piss you off. Yet when you accept it your perceptions shift and all that WAS falls away as if it was never there to begin with.
The other voice you will and DO hear right now would be your EGO VOICE. It is the voice that was taught to you by your parents, teachers, bosses, friends and the stranger on the street. It ridicules, demeans, demoralizes, shames, belittles, guilts and will use fear to get you to not look and to not ask those question. It will do all in its power to keep the Light hidden from itself and so from YOU.
Ego always responds FIRST. Stay sharp and wait for Holy Spirit to step forward and respond after the ego has gone SILENT.”
My brother responds, “Your explanation helps clarify things I’ve felt… And it helps identify the egoic mind… I understand and am grateful for you taking the time and having the patience to respond… A lot of what you’ve posted lately has resonated on some level I just couldn’t figure out where… But thank you again it seems I’m at the point of my journey where I can do nothing else but pick myself apart and find the me I’ve been looking outwardly for.”
My response, “You have just hit the nail on the head my brother. It is now time to turn within and figure out who it is you truly are within that shell you call your body. Holy Spirit awaits you within my brother. Blessings on your journey within with Holy Spirit as your guide. Allow Holy Spirit to Light the paths of the Labyrinth of your mind back to its center where it is you are and have been residing, hiding in the darkness waiting to come back to yourself.”
Blessings to you on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.