Walking away.

Hello world. The following was written 1/10/2016.

Sometimes in our lives, we are forced to evaluate ourselves, our extended families, and the people we surround ourselves with, in our daily lives. As we journey along, we find many who do not see things, as we see. In fact their perspective of viewing their world, can be very very different from ours. Sometimes we find ourselves, in untenable situations. Situations where we find ourselves, between a rock and a hard place. Where our beliefs veer, from our families, friends or even general society.

For the past week, my Husband and I have both been experiencing, this veering away in regards our family. As each word was spoken and each day passed, more and more they attacked, our chosen paths. Because we no longer blindly believe in the things they believe in, we must be under the control of the DEVIL. Each time I have testified to Holy Spirit and my Guides in my life, they have denied me my Truth. As each thing is brought up for me to look at, they tell me I should not talk about it, just because it happens doesn’t mean you should talk about it. BULLSHIT!

In talking about the things Holy Spirit and my Guides bring up for me to look at, I am healed. In shining the Light on my darkness, I uncover those things I have been hiding from myself. All week I kept hearing my Guides tell me, to walk away each time the vitriol started to spew forth, from my family. To say nothing and to Walk Away. My mistake, was assuming They(my Guides and Holy Spirit), meant it in a metaphorical way. So, I continued to walk away and not respond to the nastiness, I am following the devil and am not following “God”. Because, I am not following the hateful, vengeful, angry God they have chosen to believe in.

Connect the Dots! As this situation was unfolding, over the course of the week, I found myself dealing with physical ailments. The more my family judged me and my path, the more my body shut down on me. My neck locked up. My back started hurting, as if I was carrying a heavy burden. My third eye started in throbbing and aching, as if I was getting a migraine. Then my crown started, throbbing as well. The nastier my family got, the more pain I experienced. Until I found myself in the throes, of a very painful migraine, which had my entire body on lockdown or should I say, the purge sequence.

Last night, I found myself at my end. I spoke up and spoke my Truth, as I have been shown it. I reminded my family of what I said to them 16 years ago, if they did not want my Husband around, then they do not want me around either. I have absolutely no problem walking away, from every single one of them. I reminded them, it was their angry hateful vengeful god I walked away from, 30 years ago when I started studying Wicca, Druidism and Shamanism. I was done believing in a God who allowed me to be used and abused, by my own family and their friends. Molested, raped and beaten into submission, until I would accept what they were dictating was Truth. I Testified to my Truth and the healings I have received, since starting this course. Healings of my mind and my body. The healing of my very Soul.

Still, they would deny this. Saying again, I have fallen from the path and am following the devil. Their belief the Course, is a new age book made to discredit their beloved Jesus. Jesus, the one and only Lord God. Yet, they ignore and deny what their own scriptures state, regarding those like me with psychic abilities. We are given these abilities or GIFTS by God, so we may be informed just as their Bible states. To them, there is no other God, than Jesus. Jesus IS GOD to them.

In doing the Course, I have come to understand why it is, this has never ever set well with me. At my core, I understood fundamentally, Jesus was a man. This made him, no different than me or anyone else. Was he wise? Yes. Was he awake, to himself? Yes. Did he ever claim to be God, the creator? No. Did he state, like the Father we could forgive too? YES! We are as the Father, created us. The Father created us, like Himself, in every way. He gave freely of all He is, holding nothing back. NOTHING! His sight, hearing, creative expression, and ability to love deeply, fully, and completely, when we allow ourselves to let go all fear of connection. We are created in God’s image, with all of God’s abilities. We are not God’s shadow, reflection, after thought or mistake. God does not make mistakes. Everything we go through, is for our benefit.

Jesus, is my Brother. In following in his footsteps, I am honoring him and his teachings. I have given myself, to Holy Spirit and am in His care and under His guidance. As my Brother has told me to do, so I did. I have turned within to Holy Spirit and have asked Holy Spirit to bring me my Guides, to guide me on my journey through, the labyrinth of my mind. As each thought comes forth, it is another step into the labyrinth. Deeper and deeper I go, until I reach my true center. On reaching this place, I will know who I am fully and completely, with no confusion or fears any longer. Understanding I am manifesting everything I am experiencing around me, from the depths of my own creative mind.

At this point an understanding came to me, as Holy Spirit and my Guides again brought to my mind, a contemplation They had just had me do regarding this very thing, which was eating at me, family. They reminded me again, of the choice I made 16 years ago when my Husband and I met. I chose my Husband that day, as my family. He is my choice, given to me by God. Someone who loves me and accepts me, as I am unconditionally. Holy Spirit and my Guides also reminded me, of something Jesus went through too. Jesus found himself in conflict, when he returned to his home village. As he would speak his Truth, none there could hear him. They would curse him and denigrate him, saying he had fallen from the path. He did not know, what he was talking about and doing. Because of their lack of belief in him, he found himself without ability to extend miracles to any of them. In their disbelief in him, he doubted himself in those moments. He thought he had done something wrong, which sent him out into the desert to pray.

In this same way, I was being bombarded by all the things I grew up being told were true. The more nasty they became in their judgments, the more my body responded in sickness. The more I held back, the sicker I got. I was not, being authentic. I was not, honoring myself. In allowing them free reign to denigrate and trample on who I am, the sicker I became. When I stood up and finally spoke out. I stood in Their(Holy Spirit and my Guides) Light of Truth. I repeated again, in following Holy Spirit and my Guides I have been healed. They(my family) are allowed to believe, whatever they want too. I am not and cannot drag them, kicking and screaming into the Light of understanding. They must come on their own, willingly. It matters not, I do not want them to suffer. It is not, my choice. The choice is and has been theirs, all along. Just as it was my choice, to say no more and walk away from their path, of belief.

Last night I found myself walking away from those family members who continue to judge me and denounce me, as a devil worshipper. Holy Spirit and my Guides remind me, I do not need to experience what they experience. I do not have to be in the thick of, that kind of negative energy anymore. So I, walked away from them. I unfriended and walked away, cutting those ties which bound me in a living Hell.

I am reminded, I can still love them fully, from a distance. There is no need for me, to stand there accepting a beating, as if I deserve it. As with any abusive relationship, one must step back from it, to gain a better perspective. I love my family. I love me, more. The difference is, I am not demanding my family change. I am accepting they believe as they do. It is their unwillingness to accept me, which had my body in such chaos. In finally walking away and standing in my Light of Truth, I instantly found my entire body relieved of the pain and suffering I was experiencing, from the start of all of this.

Holy Spirit and my Guides have been telling me, to walk away every time and instead of hearing this, I decided to think for myself, believing I was to not respond and walk away, from the conversation. In not listening to what They stated explicitly, “Walk Away”, I endured a lot of pain and suffering, which was not needed. I did it to myself.

In allowing myself to waiver, for even a moment from the Truth Holy Spirit and my Guides have shown me, I incurred every ounce of pain and suffering I endured. When I finally walked away, all of the pain stopped. Instantly all pain, went away. In standing in my Light of Truth and refusing to waiver for any reason, all pain left me instantly. It is only when I start to believe whatever is being stated by someone else, I suffer. My beliefs are and were, what have been killing me slowly from within. In letting them go, I am healed and healed instantly.

I can accept and allow someone, does not believe as I do. I can let them continue on, with the beliefs they have. As they share their beliefs with me, I am to share my experiences with them. I am to share the Truths, of my experiences and the lessons They have taught me. When I do this, I am simply showing another perspective of seeing a situation. Showing another possible outcome. After my sharing, I am to let them choose what it is they will believe. Whatever their choice may be, I am to allow them to have it. Whether it be harmful to them or not. It is their choice and always will be. I have absolutely no say, in that. I am not responsible for them, in any way. They must come into the Light on their own, willingly or not at all. It is and always has been, a matter of choice. We get to choose and choose again, if we do not like what we get. We will always get to do so. This is why we have Free Will. Light or dark, it is our choice.

Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.