Hello world. The following was written 9/03/2018.
Been having some interesting happenings here. Been witnessing a point Holy Spirit has been shining a Light on which was not clear until today, about ACIM and those wanting to be and stating they are so called teachers or reverends. I had Holy Spirit showing me the similarities between my families choices to believe and those of main stream religions and the ACIM community.
Last Thursday I had a family member, my cousin, pass away suddenly in an accident. I found myself sharing the news article of his death with the following statement of, you have this moment to love them unconditionally. I also share how he came to me seeking help after dying so suddenly.
I shared, “Disconnected though I may be from my family, I still love them deeply. When something happens to them I care. Around midnight last night I received a call from my Mom my cousin had just been killed. Been bawling my eyes out all day. In an instant those we care about can be taken from this reality leaving a gaping hole in their wake. In an instant those we love are gone and all we are left with is empty arms and memories which have to last us a lifetime. I am recognizing how deeply I am feeling my own mortality and the mortality of those I love. How quickly our lives can be changed forever in an instant.
Take a moment to appreciate those around you. Take a moment to simply love one another. For you may not get another chance to do so. In an instant this chance may be taken from you forever. Stop holding back and start loving openly and freely. You only get this moment, this opportunity to love them unconditionally.”
Friday I found myself beset with what felt like a migraine. Friday morning I awoke to find myself crying uncontrollably most of the day. I also found myself experiencing external pressures on my head and body with a sense of something cool touching me. The lights and electronics started turning on and off by themselves, letting me know someone was there. When I said my cousins name my ears started ringing and the sense of being touched increased. My cousin had come to me for help. He did not understand what was happening to him. I asked one of my Guides named Erik if he would step forward and help my cousin find his way to the Light and his twin brother on the other side.
As I said, I was beset with what felt like a migraine most of the day. I thought what I was experiencing was sinus pressure from crying so much. I found myself going to bed early, only to be awoken around 6:30 AM by a call from my mom. When the call came in I was still dealing with and experiencing a severe migraine. It had me up throughout the night dry heaving, it was so bad. My mom called asking me if I was going to come pay my respects. She stated I, as in me and not WE, as in my Husband and I which stood out to me glaringly. When I asked for clarification of what I thought I was hearing, I was told if my Husband wanted to come an apology would be expected for him speaking his mind in his own home of how he felt he was being treated by my family. This ended the call with my mother suggesting my Husband and I discuss his apologizing.
To which I fell back asleep until almost 11 AM. Upon waking I still had the migraine hitting my third eye, crown and the base of my skull at the pineal. I have been having visions and dreams for the last two or three weeks of going to some family function and having my family berate me for my choices to be, believe and my choice of life partner. The call I received that morning brought those visions and dreams back to me, front and center. I understood what it was Holy Spirit was telling me would happen if I chose to bow down to my families dictates. I would be willingly walking into the very pits of hell literally. I found myself sending my mother a message. Immediately upon writing this response all the pain in my head disappeared instantly. After sending this message Holy Spirit’s response was to show me a post from a friend which showed me I made the right decision.
My response, “Good afternoon Mom. To answer your question of whether or not I would be coming to pay my respects, the answer is NO. I DO NOT have to be there to pay my respects. As a matter of fact I have already paid my respects and SPOKEN with Jaime the day after he died when he showed up here in my home asking for help crossing over. One of my Guides named Erik stepped forward and helped him cross over into the Light so he could meet Jimmy. So, NO, I do not have to be there to pay my respects.
As much as you may deny it Mother you were asking me to choose between my husband, you, and the rest of the family. You are wanting me to choose the same family who beat me, raped me, molested me and told me I was evil and a devil worshiper for these gifts God has given me. With a family like that who the fuck would need an enemy?
The connecting factor in all of this is you Mom. It has been your words and actions or lack there of which has been causing all these issues being experienced. Aunty is not a victim here. You are not a victim here. No one is a victim in any of this. Each of us made choices based on what it was we were experiencing and perceiving in those moments.
By the way, Holy Spirit showed me exactly what I would experience if I were to come out there right now and it was not pretty. I would literally be walking into the pits of hell for my entire visit would be overcast with the aspersions being spewed about me and my choices of spouse and Spiritual Belief. I would literally be demonized by all of you for not bowing down to your choices to be and believe just as you all did when you were living out here. Holy Spirit showed me a vision of you having me committed to a mental asylum, bringing in two burly men to take me away forcibly.
Remember Mother, it was you calling me fucking insane and possessed by evil for these abilities I have, before walking out my door. You walked away mother, not I. Try accepting responsibility for your own choices to judge and demonize me and mine, before walking away.
I am not required to believe as you do. Nor am I required to think and believe you are better than me in any way. I see you and everyone else as my equal in all ways. The only differences between us are the beliefs being held by you, we are different and separate.
I love you Mom. I love the rest of the family too. Yet, I refuse to believe I am less than all of you, nor that I need conform or comply to your dictates to be accepted and given some measure of what you all deem as being affection. May I suggest you disabuse your brother of his belief I walked out on you. Enlighten him to the fact YOU walked out after calling me names and demanding I come to you when I wanted my mother in my life. I was to choose you and them over my Husband who has never physically harmed me nor tried to destroy me as my “family” does and did.
Remember, I was the gift being given to you by GOD which you all chose to abuse. Remember it was you who told God you did not want me because I was a girl. Well you got what you asked for. I am now gone from you. I do not stay were I am not wanted nor accepted as I am unconditionally. All you want is me there under the conditions you stipulate. Not gonna happen. Explain that to the family Mother. You are the one keeping everyone at bay now. You and Aunty.”
My friend Kimberly Ray shares, “In your hands you hold the pollen of life…like a gentle whisper from the soul, pass your Grace unto everything you reach. Hold tight to the sacred space inside your heart, and songs of the universe will live through you.
You are the sun and the moon, and all of the stars in between.
Hold your breath against the shadows in your skies that digress you into a state of exodus in your soul. Eradicate the things that don’t serve in the highest…
The great Divine is faithful to you, seeking you in your highest.
Elevate. “
My response, “Been having some interesting happenings here. I had a family member pass away Thursday night in an accident. The next morning he was here asking for help crossing over. In life he judged me my abilities to perceive, as did the rest of my family. In the end he came to me for help and apologized for judging me so harshly. He said he now understands who I am and what it is I am able to do. Erik came forward and helped him cross over and connect with his twin brother who was waiting for him. Last night I found myself beset with a migraine which sent me to bed waking up to dry heaves and then pass out again. Around 6:30 Saturday morning my Mom calls me asking if I am going to come pay my respects. Saying my aunt would pay for me to come. If my husband is to come he has to apologize and beg her forgiveness for speaking his mind in his own home about how she was treating him.
I found myself responding to my mother later in the day reminding her it was her demanding I choose between her and the family and my husband after calling me fucking insane and a devil worshiper for my abilities and walking away which has created this disconnect between us all. Her choices to judge and not accept me as I am and my choices to be and the spouse I chose for me. I also shared with her how my cousin came to me asking me for help in crossing over since he died so suddenly.
As soon as I expressed all of this to my mother the migraine I had been experiencing so severely disappeared instantly. I am no longer being beset by the pain and suffering. As I stated it has been very interesting. Your post coming on the heels of my responding to my mom was a confirmation, as was the removal of the pain I was experiencing that I was following the Guidance given me inside by Holy Spirit. Thank you for sharing.”
My Uncle chooses to respond to my comment to my mother with the following statement of what he thinks and believes it is I am and am doing. What he believes ACIM to be and how I am following some doctrine blindly.
My family states, “A Course in miracles is based on false doctrines that does not follow the word of God. Pride cometh before a fall. Truth is your family loves you & your choices will cause you one day to look up and recognize your Salvation through the matchless name of Our Lord & Savior Jesus Christ This message I shared with you forty years ago will never change yesterday, today & Forever. Jesus loves you and so do I love Uncle”
My response, “ACIM is not a doctrine nor a theology. It puts forth concepts and ideas which have one looking at what it is they think they believe to be true. It teaches one to question that which has been taught to them which they have chosen as defining them and being the Truth for them. ACIM is based on the premises of Psychology and how the mind is used as the controlling mechanism of all you perceive to be true for you.
I do not follow ACIM, Uncle. All Guidance I receive comes from Holy Spirit and my Guides given me by God above. Everything I understand has been shown to me and proven to me by GOD above through vision after vision after vision. I made a choice to accept who I AM and these abilities given me by GOD. I no longer deny myself nor what I am able to do either. It is why Jaime came to me after he died asking for my help crossing over to the other side. His death came so quickly he had no understanding as to what was happening to him. He needed help to pass over into the Light.
By the way, thank you for proving my point beautifully of how you all cannot accept me as I AM without judgment. You do not get a say in what it is I AM CHOOSING for me. All you are asked to do by GOD is to accept me as I AM WITHOUT JUDGING ME. None of you can do this simple task.”
The silence has been deafening so far. Just as my family is holding a judgmental belief of what ACIM is and is supposed to be, so to do my brothers seem to hold this same belief my own family does. Many out there in the Spiritual community are holding ACIM up as a Doctrine or Theology to be followed blindly. They are placing themselves on pedestals while giving themselves titles of minister, reverend, priest and so forth. They are BUYING a piece of paper they believe will give them AUTHORITY and validation they are who they say they are. They hold no understanding of what they have done. For in buying those pieces of paper they are asking permission from another to state they are who they think they are.
My brothers are propagating their egoistic judgmental beliefs and ideologies. They are exchanging one set of dogmatic beliefs for another without questioning what it is they are being told is the Truth or not. As I had stated to my family above.
“ACIM is not a doctrine nor a theology. It puts forth concepts and ideas that have one looking at what it is they think they believe to be true. It teaches one to question that which has been taught to them that they have chosen as defining them and being the Truth for them. ACIM is based on the premises of Psychology and how the mind is used as the controlling mechanism of all you perceive to be true for you.”
ACIM is not and was not created to become another religious doctrine blindly followed and believed in without questioning. ACIM was created to get Humanity to start questioning these Religions and Theologies they have been indoctrinated into believing in blindly without questioning. These so called teachers and gurus of these ideologies are asking you leading questions gauged to get them the required responses to validate their points of view. All to get you to believe they know the way and are the only one who can help you. None of it is true. It is no more than an egoistic belief they would use to try to control you and all you would think, say and do.
ACIM is not supposed to be a religion. It is no more than a guidebook on how one may be able to look at and change the way they are choosing to perceive their reality. There ARE NO REVERENDS, MINISTERS, PREACHERS nor PRIESTS for ACIM. If someone is calling themselves one they are not in their rights minds and have been taken over by their EGO’s.
They are using the egoistic ideologies and judgments they were taught through main stream religions and the Cult mentality which IS Society. For SOCIETY is no more than another form of RELIGION. It’s ideologies are what are used to indoctrinate you into conforming to a belief someone has authority over you. Especially if the Being has a piece of paper which gives them a title so an imagined elevation of authority and or separation from you.
As a matter of fact, yesterday I had posted an article referring to a dialogue I had with someone who stated they are a Psychiatrist holding two separate PhD’s. This same person was also choosing to demean me through name calling and judgmental beliefs they know more than I do.
My response, “It will interest you to know that I have never read any books on psychology. I happen to be a high school drop out with a GED and Severe Dyslexia with the ability of being a psychic medium or natural mystic. Everything I share has come from my own personal experiences and the understandings given me by Holy Spirit and my Spiritual Guides within me. Holy Spirit and my Guides use my dyslexia as a tool to keep me from taking in the garbage my brothers have chosen to accept as being truth. I share my journey and the lessons learned from each one of my experiences starting at birth.
How much of what you believe in has been taught to you and not personally experienced by you? How much have you chosen to blindly accept and believe in as being the Truth and as defining you and all you think you perceive around you? Nothing is as it may seem to be. For everything is a projection of how you have been conditioned to believe it to be.
In others words, your choices to believe proceed you. As with an over head projector you overlay any and all judgmental beliefs you hold forth as being True over everything you think you perceive before you and you will experience in your reality of manifestation.
May I suggest you continue reading that which is shared of my writings. You will soon gain a deeper level of understanding of what True Psychology is and how it is and has been being used on all of Humanity to enslave them.
By the way, the only one who was projecting dogma here was you. For you are projecting out that which was taught to you or you read in a book as being the Truth you have chosen for you.”
My point in sharing this statement is this, my brothers have been doing the exact same things the so called PhD holding psychiatrist did. They choose to blindly follow and believe the bullshit and drivel they read in a book or is told to them by someone with a piece of paper with some imaginary title on it as being an authority and knowing something they do not.
They are choosing to trade in the dogma of one belief system for another blindly without questioning and then wonder why it is they are spinning their wheels and getting NOWHERE on their journeys to healing. Instead of healing they are spiraling down into the very depths of their own personal nightmares of what Hell is and could be.
Just as we are taught to blindly follow and believe from our families or punishment is the result. So to are we taught to conform to the dictates of Society or we are punished for not following the “laws” or “rules” someone else is choosing to believe in. We are being forced through coercion mentally, emotionally, physically, subliminally and literally if we choose to be different and do differently than Society is dictating.
ACIM was never meant to be a religion nor a religious doctrine to be blindly followed and believed in. It was not created to separate and divide nor place on a pedestal anyone above you. It’s purpose is to get you to see and recognize your equality and there are no differences between you and the person standing next to you. You have been trained to think and perceive the world around you in almost the exact same ways. You hold onto and believe in the lies which have been handed to you by those you see as authority. Do you get the damn picture being painted here for you yet? Every difference is imagined and a choice being made to believe.
There are no hierarchies set forth in ACIM. No one is better than or knows more than you do. You have the ability to look at and question what you perceive, experience and believe for validity in Truth. Let go these beliefs some title or a piece of paper gives someone authority and validity over you and what it is you have experienced as being Truth for you. Just because they have never had the experiences you have does not mean it is not real, true and validly experienced. What you deny is on you. Stop denying yourself what is real for you by accepting what another dictates you should be experiencing as being real for them instead.
Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.