Hello world. The following was written 12/22/2016.
For the past month, I have been looking within at the ties, which bound me. My beliefs I was obligated, to financially support my mother and extended family, accepting their judgments and dictates. If my Husband and I did not do whatever they wanted, when they wanted, as they wanted, for free, we were being ungrateful and disrespectful. If we were choosing to think and believe differently than they were, we are now devil worshipers.
My family walked away, from my Husband and I. Yet, they demanded we come to them with an apology, if we want them in our lives. As I sit here looking at this, I recognize what they want is to be the victim. They are the ones who tried to manipulate and divide us, with their judgments and opinions. The us, being my Husband Alex and I.
Our family’s unwillingness to accept our chosen mate, has caused this rift. Because we made a decision to choose each other, we are now unworthy. Unworthy, to be in their presence. Unworthy of their love, affections and their precious attention. Their refusal to accept us individually and as a couple, had us looking at, The Ties, that Bind us.
Their inability to accept us unconditionally, set the stage for us to learn, how to accept ourselves. As I am looking within at all of this, I notice an absence of emotional attachment. No pain or suffering within. I feel at peace. I feel grateful for the huge weight of the burden, of their constant judgments, dictates, manipulations to divide and to get me pick them over my Husband, is at an end. I no longer feel as if I am holding a viper to my breast, waiting for the right moment to bite me, killing me instantly, with their poisons.
I was notified of a family member passing yesterday, I feel no emotion. I knew they were in, a lot of pain and suffering physically. I also know in my heart, they are not gone. They simply laid their body aside and are now, in their true form of Loving Light Energy. They no longer suffer, the pain and agony of throat cancer. Their body, the car their Soul occupied, is now at a full rest, as they begin a new journey without the limitations of their car.
I really wish my family could understand where I am at and what I am speaking of, when I say he is everywhere and nowhere now. He is always with them and watching them, as they continue their journeys. He will be there to help them, when they get to where he is now. He loves them, and he always will. He is now their Guide, on the other side.
Amazingly this last paragraph, brought tears to my eyes. The knowing he is here, watching over all of us. I get an amazingly warm and loving feeling inside, which makes me cry. He understands, what it is I do now. He is seeing, the bigger picture. I feel his warmth envelope me, as I think of him.
Blessing on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.