Hello world. The following was written 1/6/2016.
Contemplations of ACIM Workbook Lesson 6, “I am never upset for the reason I think.”
I am looking at a pattern, repeating itself in front of me continuously. It is a pattern of fear, using manipulations of guilt and shame. The fear of being direct, when asking for assistance. Fear or shame of sharing, what your circumstances are. I am getting, this may be a fear of rejection being played out, again and again. Why is it we as a society, cannot ask for help without trying to shame or guilt the person being asked, into doing it? Why do we tend to insist on a third party, as a go between?
In asking these questions, I am finding answers are being given to me. The use of the third party, is in essence a buffer against the rejection they expect to receive. If they do not ask for it themselves, then they do not have to feel the insidious pain of being rejected. What they do not perceive, is the dishonesty and disservice they do to themselves and the person being asked. They are not, honoring themselves or the other person. In Truth, they are projecting out their belief in their own unworthiness, of loving consideration.
I am being shown how we are taught as children, if we do not conform and do as someone else wants, we will be rejected and punished for not doing so. We are judged in the moment, as being unworthy and learn to enact it on ourselves repeatedly. As we do this, we punish ourselves. We create our own pain and suffering, compounding it with an overlay of more and more judgments we are taught, to believe in as being true.
These judgments being handed us, are no more than a pattern repeated without questioning ourselves, as to why we are doing it. The ones teaching these things to us, had it taught to them in similar ways, just as their teachers had it taught to them and so on, throughout their histories, generation to generation. Each time it is taught, we misconceive it as us doing something bad or wrong. We must deserve, what is happening to us and we are responsible for how another is thinking, feeling, reacting to us. In Truth we are not responsible, for any of it. We are only responsible, for ourselves and how we choose to experience our world.
In looking within at these things and asking for correction to my misconceptions, I am given clarity, of what it is I am experiencing and perceiving every time. An understanding is being given of what exactly today’s lesson, is showing us when it states “I am never upset for the reason I think.” In looking within, I see how we do all of this to ourselves, with our beliefs in what we think is true. We judge everyone and everything, in conjunction to how we perceive ourselves. Then, we project the belief out onto the world around us, creating our own personal hell. As I write this, I keep hearing Holy Spirit and my Guides say, “Connect the dots, connect the dots…”
Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.