Hello world. The following was written 1/6/2016.
Contemplations of ACIM Workbook Lesson 6, “I am never upset for the reason I think.”
I am looking at a pattern repeating itself in front of me continuously. It is a pattern of fear using manipulations of guilt and shame. The fear of being direct when asking for assistance. Fear or shame of sharing what your circumstances are. I am getting that this may be a fear of rejection being played out again and again. Why is it that we as a society cannot ask for help without trying to shame or guilt the person being asked into doing it? Why do we tend to insist on a third party as a go between?
In asking these questions I am finding answers are being given to me. The use of the third party is in essence a buffer against the rejection they expect to receive. If they do not ask for it themselves then they do not have to feel that insidious pain of being rejected. What they do not perceive is the dishonesty and disservice they do to themselves and the person being asked. They are not honoring themselves or the other person. In Truth they are projecting out their belief in their own unworthiness of loving consideration.
I am being shown how we are taught as children that if we do not conform and do as someone else wants we will be rejected and punished for not doing so. That we are judged in that moment as being unworthy and learn to enact it on ourselves repeatedly. As we do this we punish ourselves. We create our own pain and suffering compounding it with an overlay of more and more judgments we are taught to believe in as being true.
These judgments being handed us are no more than a pattern that is repeated without questioning ourselves as to why we are doing it. The ones teaching these things to us had it taught to them in similar ways just as their teachers had it taught to them and so on throughout their histories, generation to generation. Each time it is taught we misconceive it as us doing something bad or wrong. That we must deserve what is happening to us and that we are responsible for how another is thinking, feeling, reacting to us. In Truth we are not responsible for any of it. We are only responsible for ourselves and how we choose to experience our world.
In looking within at these things and asking for correction to my misconceptions I am given clarity of what it is I am experiencing and perceiving every time. An understanding is being given of what exactly today’s lesson is showing us when it states “I am never upset for the reason I think.” In looking within I see how we do all of this to ourselves with our beliefs in what we think is true. That we judge everyone and everything in conjunction to how we perceive ourselves. Then, we project that belief out onto the world around us creating our own personal hell. As I write this I keep hearing Holy Spirit and my Guides say, “Connect the dots, connect the dots…”
Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.