Hello world. The following was written 7/10/2014.
Been reading some of the scribbles I have written over the years. I am contemplating where I was, at this point in my life mentally, emotionally and spiritually. The twisted perceptions I had of the world around me back then. Some with and some without my contemplation’s on them. I will be posting these under a public viewing so you may share them with your families and friends. In fact I invite you to do so.
To all those who know me already, no, I am not having a mental break down, no, my marriage isn’t falling apart, no, none of this has anything to do with any of you. This is my healing process and I feel compelled to share it with the world. I am not afraid, ashamed, or feeling guilty about any of it. I feel free.
Star Dust
“To my son Frank. My dream come true.”
When you are out late at night, you see the stars shining bright. Some are big, some are small, some are near, and some are far.
They are gas and they are stone. Could they be somebody’s home?
It is quite a mystery, this thing we call a galaxy. Each time we see them shining bright, we gasp with childish delight.
Taught to wish upon a star, no matter how old we are. Taught to feel a bit of fright.
To, overwhelm our small delights. We fear what’s in this galaxy, though the Universe is still to see.
A game of chess, a doll’s house. A jungle cats fearsome pounce.
Each of these realities, are not so real for those who see. For what we call morality, is as frail as Humanity.
For if some day we do prevail, We may find we are the dust
on the tip of a child’s finger nail.
Copyright ©2007 Sabrina L Griffin
I wrote this for my son years ago, under my maiden name. I had taken him to a planetarium when he six. His reactions to what he was seeing for the first time had me contemplating how everyone, myself included, are taught to think and believe.
Reading it now, I can see my perceptions of then and now. The fears and illusions I believed in so deeply and passionately. The twisted logic I was expected to learn and believe. Even when what I was perceiving was driving me batty.
Everything I think I know or thought I knew is getting blown away. Blown right out of the water. Everything I thought I knew, is an illusion created with ego thoughts and fears. Something taught to me by someone else, who had it taught to them. It was taught to them and those who taught them, for what may be eternity.
It is a pattern which is repeated until you decide to stop it yourself. To break those chains and see them differently. Judgments which were taught to you by others, were made out of fear, guilt, shame, pain, and all sorts of twisted reasoning’s from their ego minds and those of the ones who taught them.
Start to look at things without the blinders of judgments and fears. Those taught to you and the ones you have taught yourself. Some were instinctive. They are what kept you alive and maybe even sane in a completely insane, upside down world. Yet, their time of being needed is done.
I have come to recognize in myself these items and many more are no longer of use to me. I am willing and ready to let them go and never repeat them again, pass them on, or relearn them in any way.
Sabrina Reyenga
Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.