Hello world. The following was written 09/14/2016.
I was faced with a “Spiritual Community” which was anything but Spiritual. They judged me, my experiences and that which I was sharing of the experiential aspects of my journey. Telling me it was not possible to experience what I was. When I started this journey, it was under a teacher who was not a real teacher. What they were teaching was egoistic judgmental ideologies. As I moved away from them and into the community at large, I found almost every group out there, was no different than the teacher I had been trying to learn from.
At first I joined a group called Awakening Together. Only to find they were a closed house, meaning the group was closed or private and only a few people were allowed to speak or share and they did not want open dialogues. Next I joined ACIM Gather and found it to be exactly the same. Filled with egoistic judgmental ideologies and a demand everyone conform to what it is those leading the group are choosing to believe. Then I tried Open Minds which were not open at all. All of these groups and so called teachers are teaching the egoistic ideologies and dogma they learned through main stream religions. All they have done is superimposed those filters learned, transferring them over to this new medium.
“I came online this morning to this message from the ACIM Gather group… “Sabrina Reyenga — This page is for speakers and topics in ACIM Gather for a Course in Miracles — please post about the programs and speakers, any other posts will be removed — I can only think that by continuing to post on this page you are volunteering to take an hour on the schedule. Please let me know which time you want.” I am guessing someone or some “brothers” are not liking what I am posting. They do not seem to like anyone who does not blindly follow them and do as they are dictating.
My Husband Alex responded to this statement before I was able to this morning. His response was this, “LOL, I think an hour of Sabrina on the mic would be exciting! We have been on the fence waiting to see if Gather would be a closed house like AT was. So far it looks like you are leaning the same way in restricting sharing, communications and dialogue just like in AT. The only difference is you have not required approval yet to post. We have been waiting for that moment before we walk away.” Alex then posted a meme of Jack Nicholson saying “You can’t handle the Truth!”
Needless to say a few moments after that, “I” was removed from the group and my article, which happens to be shared in every group I happen to be in, was removed as well as any other articles I may have shared in this group, would be my guess. I did not have to say a single word and their ego booted me out, without a single thought. I was never given an opportunity to respond in any way to the dictates of that person. I was simply removed because they did not like my article. Everyone else was allowed to share freely in there whatever they wanted. I was the only one being singled out and told they are not allowed to speak or share freely in the group. This, in and of itself states quite a lot.
The article in contention was the one shared yesterday about the labels we use to define ourselves titled, “My Brother, what is it you seek here?”. How is this not in line with ACIM and letting go judgments for healing of the mind, body and Soul? It is not in line because this is not what they are teaching, would be my guess. They love to hand out labels and tell others who they are and are supposed to be. Especially if a label is needed before one is considered worthy enough to be able to speak to another Being. They are also selling those labels like candy. The labels they sell are reverend, minister, teacher and preacher for starters. All bought and paid for.
Closed houses are groups, organizations and churches who are unwilling to allow their brothers to be their authentic selves. They dictate who you are to be and what you are allowed to say or not allowed to say. They try to control all aspects of your life, dictating how you are to live and be. Closed houses are all about conforming to the dictates of the chosen few. You are only worthy if you buy a piece of paper from them which states you know what you know. Which shows you are able to repeat everything they have taught you exactly as they taught it to you. Unless you have this paper with a title they gave you in front of your name of Reverend, you are unworthy to be heard by them or their members.
They are teaching one how to blindly follow, accept, comply, adhere to, believe and conform to the dictates of others. They teach one to worship the false idol of a book and a title of reverend, minister, preacher, teacher and this list goes on and on.
Consider again these groups and organizations you are affiliating yourselves with. Consider again these “churches” which are dictating who you are supposed to be, what you are allowed to say and how you are allowed to act. Are you looking for a closed house, someone to tell you what to do, how to do it and tell you everything YOU are doing is wrong? Is this really what you are seeking?
Each of these places are closed houses and will not tolerate anyone not conforming to their dictates. I am stating this because this IS what I have experienced with each of these groups and the people who are in control of them. They seem to have no tolerance for anyone who’s journey is not exactly the same as their own. There is no acceptance and allowing within these houses or groups. Everything is conditional on you doing as they state when they state it.
What a way to start the day. Another one bites the dust! Seriously consider walking away from these groups with “dictatorships”! For groups, organizations and churches, such as Awakening Together and ACIM Gather, promote the ideology and belief in blindly following, accepting, conforming, complying, adhering to and believing whatever is being dictated to you. My brothers, these dictators are hypocrites. This has been my personal experience with each of these groups and the ones running them.
Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.