Hello world. The following was written 01/17/2023.
On January 12, 2023, my Husband Alex shared on his Facebook timeline, the passing of our cat Chance crossing the Rainbow Bridge after a battle with kidney failure. For the past week a brother has chosen to comment on this sharing, with a diatribe of what he thinks and believes Alex should be thinking, saying and doing. I have sat back watching and reading what this brother has been stating, until today. Today this brother chose to tag me directly, in his diatribe to Alex. The following is his last statement to Alex tagging me, with my own response to him.
A brother states, “Alex Reyenga now what?
More long posts?
More attempts to explain?
More misunderstanding?
More “I didn’t say” from you and from me?
I don’t know how to say this anymore. I have tried. I don’t want to just watch stuff that you and she recorded.
You choose. Make the rules if you want. I don’t think it’s going to be helpful to be typing on this post and comment stuff much longer. I know that the dynamics of a verbal conversation in which a give and a given for each other and to each is “worlds” apart from the safety of written words. I would be a hybrid if I didn’t insist on this. I am surprised by this development too, but it is not an option.
Do you hear the voice of “holy Spirit”? Now please don’t answer this question. I asked because it is extremely important and personal. ACIM does not work without that connection. I don’t judge if you do or don’t.
Perhaps you do?
I was showering my body tonight. The soap felt nice as I felt it bonding with impurities on my skin and with the steam of water splashing over my body and taking them away. I was simply breathing, aware, wanting to be shown. Holy Spirit told me that I, as a body Henry, gave to the earth, the nature in which I am, parts of myself in each and every moment but during a shower it is like a wind storm for a tree and it releases much of itself to the natural world it needs to love in
It feeds it thus and so does the body, Henry. I understood that few people in this world have ever thought of their showering of their bodies as a feeding for the natural world in which the body is experiencing.
This experience only took a few seconds, perhaps a minute total. It took much longer to share it, and perhaps it gets rejected as not from Holy Spirit.
Ummm. It just feels like you are trying to correct my perception with the quotes that you presented and the text you typed. I don’t get upset about this. I don’t have value for this advice anymore.
It’s like I talked about the idea that you don’t possess the “apple” until you swallow the pieces one by one. Then you talk about something else and think that you have related. I try to jump in to the truth about the “apple” with you and state that even if you eat the apple it is never yours as a body because you don’t totally join with it and must learn to let it go properly. You, Alex, quote ACIM stuff as though it relates. I used to get huffy, puffy, and want to blow your house down.
I don’t want to do this anymore. You choose. I have tried to explain the limitations. Blame me, fine! Almost all the people who rejected me did the same thing. And I understand that you are going to come back with the “victimhood” teaching stuff. Do not waste your time, but I don’t want to “take away your freedom”.
Make me the problem and feel smugly correct about your “spiritual insight”.
Projecting, Projection! Love doesn’t mean that you correctly control and correct your brother with quotes from ACIM.
I don’t do that. I stand. I support my own mind with the understanding that the Holy spirit wants to pour through you and me, beyond ACIM. But absolutely clearly to me, in conjunction with ACIM. Alex and Sabrina, if I have deviated from ACIM in my texting I expect that you can say so without the quotes.
I said that Spirit doesn’t learn. Was I so unaware that I missed how you explain that it must and does?
Call that conceptual juggling if you want and we are finishing. I, as a different person than you two, am unwilling to continue to pretend that I am that.
We, are the awakening. The You that you are, both of you together, as the joint unit that you were designed to play in this time and space, ate the awakening. Just as everyone and everything that contributes to it, is. Yes, we slip away, skip a beat, drop a stitch in the weaving of the holy web that catches all the hearts and reunites them into the Holiness.
I have less and less time, I am sorry.
When I finally find the section about frowning I am going to see if I can send you the text.”
My response, “Until you chose to tag me directly, I have chosen to remain silent, allowing my Husband Alex to respond to you here. I have sat here reading your demented tirades demanding Alex conform, comply and believe as you have chosen for you.
What you have chosen to do, is superimpose over the ACIM materials, what you were indoctrinated and trained to do with any and all materials laid before you. You superimpose all rules, laws, regulations and prohibitions taught to you, as the filters you view your reality through.
Alex has pointed out over and over, the beginning lessons and text within ACIM are the key in understanding, what it is you choose so do. Everything you think you know and believe in, has been taught to you. Each one you accepted for yourself as what is TRUTH.
Just because you have chosen to believe in it, does not mean it is real or TRUE! No one is required to accept what you believe in. No one is required to make real for you what you believe, by accepting it for themselves.
You came onto Alex’s timeline spewing your egoistical judgmental beliefs, of what you think he should or should not be doing here. You took it upon yourself to step in and JUDGE the emotional devastation he was experiencing and expressing for the loss of our animal companion whom we saw as our child. You sir are a cur of the worst sort. For you negate that which your brothers are experiencing, in your belief they should think so believe as you do.
You do NOT have it right or correct. What you have done is superimposed your EGO, over the ACIM materials demanding it change and be, what you want it to be and mean for you. You pick, choose and twist the materials to mean what you want them to mean.
As Alex has stated, you DO NOT SEEK TRUTH above all else. What you seek, is the comfort of the lies, you have chosen for you. You seek to make real, that which holds NO VALUE or WORTH. You idolize a book. You idolize, so worship what another has chosen to believe in, without questioning if what you are choosing is actually real or true.
You are lost in the darkness, of a nightmare of beliefs. You seem to hold a belief, if your brothers are not thinking and believing as you are choosing to, your brothers are insane and to be vilified. You seem to believe, you are a critical thinkers, free thinker and believe you are not following, a book or group thinking system.
You sir, are the epitome of, the enlightened ego mind. As you enslave yourself, you do your best to enslave everyone you come in contact with. You try to play the part of the teacher, the guru who is to be worshipped and idolized. You try and fail over and over. For you hold no understanding of what a TRUE TEACHER is here to teach.
The Course tells us to, LISTEN to HEAR where our Brother is at and not to respond. To NOT give advice, of any kind. The reason, because what you are doing is projecting out your egoistic beliefs, shoving them down someone else’s throat, as if you know what is needed.
You blindly follow a book, teacher or Guru. Paying them, for the bullshit they spew. You, have not done the inner work, as it is stated in the Course. Instead, you have allowed someone else to tell you, what it says and means. Like a good little robot you followed it blindly to a T. Now you wonder why it is your life hasn’t changed, and has actually gotten worse. I wonder why? Try doing the inner work as it is stated, not as you interpret it. You may finally, get some clarity.
It is not your place, to correct a Brother. It is not your place, to judge a brother. It is not your place, to try and control a brother either. YOUR PLACE, is sitting there looking at your own shit, asking your inner Guides for the corrections. This is your job, function, and purpose, here now. To work on your own shit, within. Until you have had healing and are in your “right mindedness”, you project only the EGO. Says it, in the Course. Lessons 15 and 16 with the related Chapter text, state this about right mindedness and ego thoughts.
Apparently, you like following a book, guru or supposed teacher. You like being told what to do, because you are to lazy to do the inner work yourself. You want someone else, to do it for you, telling you the answers. Sorry, but it does not work this way. You HAVE TO DO, THIS INNER WORK YOURSELF. No one, can do it for you. ONLY YOU, CAN DO THIS INNER WORK! No one else can know, what you are experiencing, thinking, believing in, as being true. You have to be willing, to look at everything you think you believe in. Yet, you are not willing to do so. I can say this, based on your commentary. All I see, are your judgments and opinions, you know what is best for another. Not possible!
The false teachers and gurus use the teaching, as a tool of subversive manipulation, to have the student stay under the teacher, always following and never understanding. For these Beings will hold the Truth to them, only permitting the chosen few, to catch glimpses when they deem them worthy, and not until then. They use their power, to pervert and control, not to help heal those seeking of them.
The purpose of the teacher, is to help the student surpass the teacher in understanding, so they turn inward and seek the knowledge within them and not without out there in the world in their brothers and books.
I AM a True Teacher of ACIM, for I teach the student to turn within to Holy Spirit for their guidance and answers. I do not permit my brothers to place me on a pedestal idolizing me, over the messages I would bring forth so place before them. I AM a Channel, a Conduit for Holy Spirit. I step out of the way allowing my form to be used as the radio to speak out His messages of Truth.
May I suggest you close your mouth and look at that which you have been choosing to spew, on Alex’s timeline and your other brother’s timelines. Look at what you have been choosing for you. When you do, you will see the Hell you have manifested so created for yourself, through your own choices to blindly judge so believe as you have chosen to.”
Look at what you have been choosing, for you. Recognize what it is you are choosing, is what you believe.
Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.