Hello world. The following was written 3/01/2016.
Can I say good morning world when I haven’t been to sleep? When I have been in constant pain for the last three days? Unable to sit, stand or lay down. Sharp shooting pains from my hip to my toes, with spasms that have my whole body bowed, as I bury my head into my pillow to scream my agony out, as tears flow down my cheeks.
Yes I can say good morning. Through all of this I have noticed that even though my pain and suffering are great, I have not been blaming God. I have not been asking what I have done wrong. I just keep asking what it is all for. What is my misperception that I am not getting here? Holy Spirit what would you have me do?
I figure I have about 30 minutes before the next set of spasms kick in. I use medical cannabis for my pain mitigation and even that is helping only so much. It takes the very edge off and that is about it. I am going in to see my chiropractor in a couple of hours. Hopefully he can get me straightened out and my sciatic un-pinched. I have no idea how it happened but it is here and I am dealing with it via acceptance. Although I am asking it to be removed, the pain that is. I can handle quite a bit of pain. But this, this was off the charts. It felt bone deep in many ways.
Hopefully later today I can get the videos for yesterday and today made and uploaded. As I said I haven’t been able to sit, stand or lay down. Sitting in front of the camera and trying to comprehend the ACIM text through a fog of pain, nah, not going to happen. It is hard enough for me to comprehend it on a good day of minimal pain. We shall see how this day unfolds.
Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.