Hello world. The following was written 2/20/2017.
I had a couple of brothers respond to my article titled, “Words said in anger.”. The following were their comments and my responses.
A brother responds, “I had misread this at first. I thought you were asking us to do this for you. One of my first impressions is that you analyze things a lot.”
My response, “As a child growing up I understood the intentions of those around me. If their intentions were to molest or rape me I knew it. Hurt me I knew it. Be dishonest I knew it. Were hurting inside I knew it. Were in physical pain I knew it. When I tried to explain this to my family and doctors they thought I was going insane. When I spoke to the nuns and priests they told me I was demon possessed and needed to be exorcised and canned to get the demons out of me. Anytime I spoke up about what I was “seeing, perceiving and experiencing” I was hit, told I was making it up, lying, imagining it, asking for it, wanting it, punished and ostracized until I took back or denied anything was occurring. I eventually learned to stop standing in my Light of Truth. To hide myself in every way I could think of just to be left alone.
After nearly being raped at 14 and having to talk to five separate psychiatrists appointed by the courts, I finally stood up in my Light of Truth. I refused to back down. Out of those five psychiatrists only one told me I did nothing wrong. All the others told me I asked for it and deserved it. After that I learned to stop listening to those so called experts out there. I learned to look within and analyze what it is I am experiencing by listening to Holy Spirit and my Guides. They are the ones who have guided me to do all of this looking within.”
Another brother responds, “As a child I never knew what motivated the ‘crazy one’ in my birth family. Always thought I must have done something wrong. Did not see him as having a problem. Now as a full adult (still with the heart of a child)I do understand.”
My response, “It is in the looking at and questioning of those experiences that I found the answers and healing I was so desperately needing and seeking. Until I willingly looked within at them I could not heal. All I would do is repeat the patterns taught to me, judging myself as being whatever they were telling me I was to be. Choosing to do that is what caused so much of my pain and suffering. When I did turn within and ask Holy Spirit and my Guides for the Truth my pain ended and Light filled that space with Love.”
Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.