I was choosing to believe I was a victim of the world.

Hello world. The following was written 11/14/2016.

A friend shared the following, prompting me to respond sharing part of my journey.

A brother shares, “If religion is merely a home for discipline in our lives, an avenue for us to have “structure and foundation” through routine… aren’t we falling into the pit of blind faith through routines? Just showing up to Church because it provides a foundation is an illusion in my perspective.. don’t get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with going to church, but foundation & structure come from the heart, and personal discernment through action & living in oneness with God. Salvation comes through one on one, self reliant connection, bonded with God. No man can, or ever will be able to teach me about my relationship with God. That can only be between me & God & a connection that is self realized… If we can’t be self reliant in the way we love, based on personal relationship with God, than I think anything else is a false reality. “

My response, “The understanding I am given by my Guides in regards “religion” is, “ALL RELIGION” is man made. Every facet was created with one thing in mind. To manipulate Humanity to give away their Free Will to someone else, without conscious awareness they are doing so. The tools used are judgments and opinions being blindly followed without questioning and Humanities own minds and emotions. Humanity blindly follows and believes whatever is being said to them by those behind the pulpit, the government, their friends, society, media and their families. Very few stop to question what is being said to them. Those who question, are usually crucified before the masses to make of them an example to keep others in line. They are using shame, guilt, pain, suffering, blame and fear as strong arm tactics ending in ostracism. I myself have experienced every one of these in the churches I have attended, societies(towns, cities, states, countries), the government and within my own family.

What I have found, is the foundation I and my brothers have built on, is based on lies. Every judgment and opinion taught to me, has been a lie I chose to blindly follow and believe. No one made those choices for me. I made each one on my own, the first at 9 months old. I believed I must be doing something wrong, to be treated the way I was. I believed I must not be worthy of love, kindness, gentleness or acceptance. I made those choices to believe, at 9 months old. I made those choices based on how I was being treated.

For the last 10 years I have been on a journey. A journey of discovering who I truly am within this shell I call my body. I am looking at every experience I have had since birth, which has stayed with me. I am looking at every trauma I have endured. Looking at each rape, molestation, beating, caning, exorcism, mental and emotional abuse. Learning each had a purpose with a lesson within it for me to learn. In each situation I was accepting the judgments handed to me or was judging the situation myself. Not once was I allowing and accepting what was happening as it was. Each time I chose to judge. Each time I judged I suffered my judgments with the mental and emotional pain, which came with them. I was choosing to believe I was a victim of the world. I believed it was trying to kill me.

I learned where the pain and suffering I was experiencing came from. I was doing it to myself. No one was doing anything to me. My choices to judge, to believe the judgments said to me about each situation, created a repeating pattern within my own mind, of judging myself as a victim. There are no victims in this world. In each situation I judged and I suffered because of it.

As I let go these things I was taught to think, believe, say and do, I find myself standing on a new foundation. One based on Truth and not judgmental lies. One based on my choices to Be who I AM as I AM, without masks or false facades before me. Being honest and authentic in who I AM and where I AM, I stand in my Light of Truth. I am no longer blindly following my brothers journeys. I now understand my brothers must travel their own journeys within to figure out who they Truly are and not who they have been taught to think and believe they are, just as I AM.

The journey within is not easy. It takes willingness to look at what you believe in to be true and what you believe defines you. It has taken willingness to step away from family and friends who would judge your journey, because it does not match their own.

Each step I take within myself, I find myself reconnecting to God, Source, or All That Is. I no longer have an invisible wall between my brothers, myself and God. In accepting and allowing my brothers to be as they are where they are without judgment, I now see a reflection of where I have been. In standing in my Light of Truth I testify by sharing my journey, allowing my brothers to witness my Truth for themselves.

Every judgment we accept and make, we use as the basis of the foundation of who and what we think and believe we are. Each one has been taught to us, as it was taught to those who taught us. Generation after generation, following the same beliefs and patterns of judgments blindly without question. Until someone chooses to start questioning everything.

I find myself resonating with those of “like” mind. Some may be in a Church made by man, or a “Church” made by God. All are equal in every way. There is no difference between my brothers and myself. We have been taught the same things, with slightly different twists and meanings put into play. This has been a psychological brainwashing, we each go through. Taught from birth to blindly follow the dictates and judgments of others. Taught to seek out and then believe those judgments.

Thank you for starting this discussion. It has been the basis of my journey for 10 years now and counting.”

The Voiceless Voices or my Guides are telling me to clarify. “Honesty and authenticity with ourselves and every Being we cross paths with will be needed. Nothing is to be hidden for any reason. All is to be placed out in the open for all to see and witness for themselves. Stand in your Light of Truth without fear of being judged or even ostracized. Those who walk away are not ready to hear your Truth. They will return when they are ready to receive what you are sharing.”

HA! I just had the scene from the Wizard of OZ pop up with the guy behind the curtain being revealed. The church and the government are the guy behind the curtain!

If you ever want to talk about any of the things I shared or anything at all, reach out to me. I am here to share all I am being given, so my brothers may heal as I have healed on all levels of body, heart, mind and Soul.

Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.