Hello world. The following was written 9/02/2016.
I am speaking of the retrograde and the gifts I was being given of witnessing the things my brothers were sharing of their own trials and tribulations. Their sharing had me looking within at those things I myself had experienced too.
“Something to consider, until one can look within themselves honestly, authentically, LOVINGLY and ACCEPT themselves exactly as they are, they will not be able to connect with anyone else. Until then they will continue to place walls between themselves and others. They continue to wear a mask, a false façade to hide from the world and themselves who they Truly are. When I love myself someone else can love me.
Both my Husband and I had to stop searching for love. We both found ourselves seeking instead for a friend to accept us exactly as we are, when we are. Someone who allows us to simply BE. In asking for this we had to be willing to give the same without reserve and without judgments of any kind. It is a tall order, but worth every instant of the peace and joy which comes from it. All it takes is being willing to be completely authentic with ones self and all who’s path may cross your own.
Being authentic requires letting go of our fears of being judged in any way. To no longer hide any aspect of ourselves or our experiences. To take full responsibility for the choices and judgments we make and the consequences of them. This means accepting responsibility for accepting the judgments being handed to us. Because in everything we make the choice and decisions to do so each time. You always have a choice and you are the only one who gets to make this choice. No one else may make them for you. All they may do is accept and allow that you have.
This is a retrograde. Everything which can go wrong, does go wrong during these cycles. I normally do not react to situations. Yet, I have been lately, which is very telling for me. I to am not immune to the Universe. I would like to say I am immune. As I shared earlier I am faced with items I learned in childhood in witnessing the actions of the adults around me. Their infidelities trained me to question and be suspicious. To always be in fear of the same things happening to me. This retrograde has me looking at those beliefs and healing them. Everything we go through is for our benefit and the benefit of our brothers. Every single thing without exception.
I would like to thank you for sharing where you are at on your journeys my brothers. Your sharing had me looking again at my relationship with my Husband, Alex Reyenga, and how we came together and why. It had me looking at my childhood and the experiences I had while witnessing the relationships the adults around me were having. It showed me I was holding onto a fear of having those kind of relationships, myself. I was holding a belief and judgment regarding those who cheat. They lack authenticity and are to never be trusted. Those things I learned as a child had me seeing my own relationship through a foggy veil of fear. By sharing with you my journey it helped me to see more clearly what has been in hiding. To see the experiences I had had as a child being projected out on my life now. Once seeing it I was able to let it go and heal from it. So again I thank you deeply from the depths of my Soul for your gift to me.
I use the term brother as a blanket term for all Human Beings. When I “see” my brothers I see them not as the body they inhabit, but the Soul within the shell which in Truth has no gender specificity because it knows and understands at the core of its Being it is in Truth both and not one or the other. I see the Soul within you and not the shell you think yourself to be. I see the perfection of YOU.”
Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.