Hello world. The following was written 5/19/2022.
Everyday brothers make statements telling me what it is they think so believe. Everyday brothers ask questions about their journeys or about what I have shared of my own journey. Everyday there is someone judging what I share of my own life experiences, telling me I am doing something wrong and should do as they dictate. Everyday someone judges me and that which I share with backhanded subversive compliments and the next instant tell you they can help you heal, they know the way. Everyday brothers project their beliefs I do what I do for money, control and power. Every day my brothers judge Truth as an attack so see themselves as bullied. Everyday seems the same when one chooses to bare Witness to what their brothers choose to do projecting their beliefs on to the world they perceive.
A brother states, “No, the shadow false ego self and it’s separation is Christ’s innocent holographic hell until we remember we never get exiled from The Grace Of the Mind/Heart/Bring of Christ’s, “tiny mad idea” of a would opposite to Love, that sells everything unlike Love until we literally laugh the silly ego gnat shrieking at Eternity that time killed killed Eternity was crucified in Self mage up holographic hell of holographic fleshy sin and sacrifice.
Separation sucks ass. Let’s play Union with Love’s Sources and Unity and Holy Divine and while Relationships with the One body of Christ’s Consciously snd Graciously Chosen temporary unconscious crucifixion of flesh by death of Self/selves fictional ego’s serpent devil’s exile in hell for both, taxes, suffering, sickness, death.”
My response, “What the actual FUCK are you driveling on and on about constantly? Do you even know? Day in and day out you scream of some demonic Being creating a false reality for you to be a part of. Do you not realize YOU ARE the creator, the one manifesting this reality you are part of? Everything YOU HAVE CHOSEN to believe in IS what has been placed before you to look at so heal thyself from. Your choices to believe ARE what has you in a mental mind fuck spewing out this garbage onto everyone your path crosses. HEALER, HEAL THYSELF! Heal your mind by letting go what you have JUDGED all to be for you. NO ONE can do this inner work for you. You must willingly face yourself and that which you have been choosing for you to believe in so judge all to be. There are NO VICTIMS here! All pain and suffering you experience is created by you. OWN YOUR SHIT!”
My brother responds, “the dastardly little ego devil is fictional and so is the dream and Roxie and Jesus, yet the duality simulation is “lived” expression and experience within the false reality of time and space. Christ made up the false ego. The only way to transcend it is not to seeking its special separation love/hate relationship as a substitute for Being Love’s. Are you crucified? Are you the body? Are are temporary?”
My response, “I am not this meat coated skeletal wagon called a body. I AM the SOUL, the very Essence of ALL THAT IS encapsulated within this shell emanating the Light of ALL THAT IS within me. Like an actor on the stage I don a costume to pretend to be finite when I KNOW I AM ETERNAL and always have been.
I once believed myself crucified each time I was killed or died from drownings and allergies before being resuscitated to continue being abused and killed again and again. I no longer believe what once I did, so am crucified no more. You to can let go all you were taught so trained to believe. Ask Holy Spirit and your own Guides given you by God to show you the way and they will.”
A brother states, “If you studied ACIM truly you would know that you do not reside in a body, and God did not give you body hair. All of it is your choice. Your choice to feel ashamed. Making the body real… we are not bodies”
My response, “If you were truly a student of ACIM you would realize it IS a SELF STUDY and not meant to be done in groups or as a religious doctrine as you have chosen to make it. Now move along with your judgmental egoistic BULLSHIT as I no longer have time for you or the DARKNESS you bring everywhere you go.
That and your lack of discernment or ability to READ so UNDERSTAND and COMPREHEND what you read or WHEN IT WAS WRITTEN. You JUDGE everything placed before you. Stop trying to be a teacher for you lack wisdom and understanding of your own journey so have no right to speak to another of theirs.”
My brother responds, “Sounds like you are fuming. Why?”
My response, “That is your own judgments at play as was pointed out to you. I use the language easiest for those listening or reading to comprehend as PER Holy Spirit’s Guidance. Being BLUNT and to the POINT seems to get your attention and brings in comprehension for you. I’m not my Husband and WILL NOT put up with you or your antagonisms or egoisms. I see you for who you are and WHERE you are at on the journey. I DO NOT PLAY GAMES. I get straight to the point!
Our brothers demons are not yours to look at so face. Her PATH is NOT YOUR PATH! Her life experiences are not yours. She sees her world differently than you do. Do not judge her in how she is perceiving her reality to be as you do your own.
Look in your mirror and see yourself through these layers of film you have laid over your own image in judgmental labels and beliefs. Recognize how you project your beliefs on others demanding they believe as you are choosing to. No one is required to accept or believe as you are choosing to.”
My brother responds, “Sorry Sabrina, I am totally unwilling to follow your instructions”
My response, “Then you have condemned yourself to a living HELL tormented by the prison warden of your own mind and the beliefs it encages so shackles you in place with. As long as you continue to judge so condemn your brothers their choices to be so believe you condemn yourself eternally.”
My brother responds, “Sabrina Reyenga Bullying me like this ain’t gonna help ya much either. Happy are the peacemakers.”
My response, “If stating an absolute TRUTH bluntly and pointedly is judged to be bullying by you, SO BE IT! It is your choice to judge so believe as you choose to. I speak TRUTH and only TRUTH for I CANNOT LIE! I AM NOT to make real your demons so you feel validated in your beliefs you are a victim here. There are no victims here! Only those who make choices so must reap the KARMIC CONSEQUENCES of their own choices to BE.”
Alex responds, “Brother, You are not a peacemaker, you are far from it. You disturb others with your judgements as you are disturbed yourself. You do this because you would be rid of your own inner turmoil that you wish to be rid of and so deny in yourself and so give to others.”
My brother responds, “Alex Reyenga Wrong diagnosis of me again.
Looks like you will not be a good psychologist this time around. ACIM is the best psychological book ever written. No inner turmoil If you both want to argue then find yourselves other victims”
My response, “Actually Alex is on point and correct in what he is perceiving of you and that which you have been choosing to do. You are not a peacemaker. You make war on your brothers and that which they are choosing for themselves in a belief you are a teacher and your way is the only way. You are no teacher but a war maker, judge and prosecutor of yourself and your brothers. You forget whose home you are in or wall/post you are on.”
Alex responds, “Do you see yourself as a victim now? I don’t see any attacking going on here. I only see the truth being shared. If you say that you cannot be disturbed then why wouldn’t you consider the truth that is being shared with you about what it is that you do. If you wish to heal you would consider it without playing the victim and getting defensive instead of doing the very thing that you accuse others of doing.”
A brother states, “Lovely. I deal with these issues daily. What works for you cannot heal all souls although I love your spirit and dedication. Never quit I so love your efforts There are many that do not understand your intellect. Maybe they have no right to it. I see your beauty inside out. Never change”
My response, “Brother, I hold no expectations of any kind what I share is accepted by anyone. We know not who is baring witness to our interactions and conversations with each other in life and on these platforms. We know not what lessons they are learning as spectators to the events between others before them. Conversations had openly can shed light with understanding a different perspective and purview not considered before. Even vitriolic dialogues can be of benefit, for they shed Light on that which had been hidden from the speaker and those listening and watching.
I know not how many I am helping heal on their journeys when I interact sharing my own journey to healing with them. Sharing my real life experiences with the processes I was guided through with Holy Spirit and my Guides. I know not how many are watching and learning from what is occurring before them until they come to me and tell me of it. There have been many. I know not how many are watching and learning from me.
My Mother In-Law is a retired licensed Psychologist who went through years of schooling to get her degree to be able to practice. It took her a long time to accept and realize what I speak of and share is the absolute Truth. What I speak of are things the medical community gloss over never discussing because it destroys the very foundations of what they have based their systems of control over. I have had many interactions with Psychologists and Therapists within the Spiritual and medical communities speak with me seeking deeper clarity and understanding of what is shared and spoken of.”
My brother responds, “Why always refur to me as brother? I am your sister. Love the thoughts.”
My response, “I use the term unilaterally for everyone, including my parents, son and extended family as Holy Spirit and my Guides use the term with me regarding everyone around me including myself. I know I AM not this form I inhabit, but the Soul within it. I hold both masculine and feminine energy within me so am able to express both energies, as we all are.
This form does not define me in any way. I am not this meat coated skeletal wagon called a body. I AM the SOUL, the very Essence of ALL THAT IS encapsulated within this shell emanating the Light of ALL THAT IS within me. Like an actor on the stage I don a costume to pretend to be finite when I KNOW I AM ETERNAL and always have been. Just as you are!
I do not “see” the form one is choosing to be here. What I “see” is the Soul bared within the costume. I SEE the Light within those around me which is both masculine and feminine in its neutrality.
Holy Spirit states, “The masculine term is the easiest for Humanity to accept equality of. The feminine has been used to tear down so degrade and belittle both male and female. Feminine terms are seen in a negative creating the greatest of offense closing doors of opportunity for communication and healing.”
And then there are these issues too, as Holy Spirit stated.”
My brother responds, “Smarty pants you. Wordy but intelligence radiates from my phone. I finally get your ideals of ego. It seems tied to a subversion. To common values”
My response, “No you do not understand what the ego is. It is a way of thinking, perceiving so believing taught using judgments and labels with myriad definitions one may switch out at will to change who and what others would perceive them to be including themselves.
All I know so understand has been taught to me by Holy Spirit and my Guides. I dropped out of high school at age 16 with severe dyslexia, synesthesia. Holy Spirit has used this disability as a tool to keep me from taking in the garbage my brothers have been taught and trained to do so believe. If Holy Spirit does not want me reading or hearing something I get blocked. Writing looks like a foreign language and spoken words will sound foreign too.”
My brother responds, “Ya know. Love is bottom line. No more words needed. I am quiet. I am not so eloquent as you. I think that we could make a great team. I want to make a difference. You have that something that I don’t”
My response, “There is way more to me, what I have experienced on this journey and the understandings given me because of them than you know. I speak with Conviction a Knowing and Understanding that knowledge cannot bring one. Until something is experienced personally one has no knowing of it, so no understanding. All they have is a knowledge this thing being described may be possible to be experienced.
What I have which you seek and crave is Knowing with CONVICTION what is shared is TRUTH! You cannot get this by hanging onto my coat tails or anyone else’s. To get these things one has to do the inner work needed to face themselves and their inner demons then heal themselves. No one can do this inner work for you. You have to willingly face yourself head on and question every single thing you think you know so believe in including all you believe yourself to be.
Consider this inner work needed as The Dark Night of the Soul on steroids. One has to face their darkest moments starting from their birth to present day and heal them all completely.
Something else to consider, I am not dangling a carrot on a stick before my brothers in a bid to get them to follow me or pay me for my help. I am not their healer here. I am simply a conduit the information flows through to get to them the receiver.
Holy Spirit and my Guides have stated I am not to ask my brothers for anything in return what I share. I am to share openly, honestly and authentically holding nothing back, hiding nothing. I am to use the language best suited for my brother to understand what is shared with them. I am to use the language THEY UNDERSTAND.
I am not and do not seek out others. Holy Spirit will place those I am to interact with before me asking me to share specific items with them. I go where Holy Spirit has me go and speak with who Holy Spirit would have me speak with. When something I share is helpful my brothers share with me how it helped them to heal and understand their own journey.
I may share the experiential aspects of my journey, yet I always direct my brothers to turn within themselves to Holy Spirit and their Guides for their answers. It is not to me they are to seek these understandings from. I am a Light in the darkness showing my brothers where the doors are out of their nightmares.
As I said I ask for nothing from my brothers. When my brothers find what is shared helpful they have been choosing to donate to me of their own Free Will choice to do so. When they do I accept their gift with gratitude and appreciation. For when my brothers donate to me they are paying it forward so I may continue helping them and others heal what has been experienced on their own journeys. It is not asked for. It is given FREELY from the Heart by them.
I am not here giving to get. I give freely knowing what is given shall be received back to me in what I may need to continue my own journey. I am always provided what I need when I need it as I need it.”
Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.