Hello world. The following was written 4/30/2015.
When I woke up this morning I began my normal routine. I got up and used the bathroom, then went to help make coffee. I then sat at the computer in the office and began checking my business emails. We have been doing contract work for about 7 to 8 years now for a couple of companies.
As the workload has increased over the years scheduling and communicating with the different people involved has become more and more complex. At the beginning of the year Alex and I discussed the issues happening and the frustrations everyone was running into. Because of the problems everyone was having, Alex inquired if he could have me contact the end users to schedule the appointments to free him to focus solely on the work.
Since I started doing this work the communication lines have opened fully for everyone. So much so Alex and I have both been receiving a lot of praise lately. One of the Heads of management actually sent me a very nice email last night in regards this stuff. I was able to schedule a three person move for two locations so all work would be able to be done at the same time on the same day.
Each time I have spoken with this Manager on the phone or via email I have done my best to answer every question he has and to ask the questions needing to be asked. His email last night has me looking at some deep seated thoughts and feelings within me. In his email he stated: “If I ever grow up, I’d like to be half as good as you! Thank you for everything you do!”
I have always had a huge problem accepting compliments of any kind. For me they have seemed to lead into abuse in one form or another. Holy Spirit has been working on this with me for a while now. I can feel my anxiety levels wanting to rise. I sit here asking Holy Spirit to help me accept without fear what is said and to accept it as the extending of love it is meant to be. Holy Spirit is helping me to let go the things I was taught as a child for self preservation. No longer will I be a victim of the world around me.
As I look at these traumas from my childhood Holy Spirit heals me of the misconceptions I was taught to believe. Slowly, step by step, I am seeing the Truth beyond the veils of what I was taught. The deeper I go into this darkness the more I am healed my misconceptions.
Holy Spirit tells me deny nothing and look at everything. Do not pick and choose. He will decide what is to be looked at and dealt with in His time and not mine. I place my faith and trust in Him to guide me true. Holy Spirit is my guide and teacher and it is to Him and only Him I listen. To do otherwise would be the most painful of deaths. It would be the death of the Souls Spirit within. A Travesty.
Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.