Hello world. The following was written 4/20/2015.
A moment of clarity. When I, and I am talking about ME here, am trying to listen to and believe what my Husband is telling me is true as per his perceptions and beliefs, I find myself in extreme doubts as to my own sanity of my OWN perceptions. When my Husband is blaming me for something he is misconceiving in his own mind about a situation and constantly tells me I am thinking wrong, feeling an emotion wrong or I am not actually looking at my own shit when I honestly am looking at it and asking my Guides if this is true, all pain and suffering I am experiencing is being caused by me and my own choices to accept and believe what is being said to me. I am responsible for what I am believing in.
In a nutshell we perceive what we want until we choose to see the Truth. The Truth in this case is if I continue to try listening to and believing or following the dictates of others, suicide is the only viable outcome. Point being, what I was saying earlier if I continue to listen to the Bull Shit I may as well kill myself now. It is a slow tediously painful process otherwise. MY ISSUE this morning was I was listening too and believing what my Husband was saying to me as being true. When what was shared was simply the perspective he was perceiving from.
So in closing, my point is this, nothing anyone has to say in any way has meaning, unless I choose to give it meaning by believing in it. My path is my own and I am not willing to continue contributing to my own demise by placing someone else’s picture of beliefs over my own. I have my Guides now and do not have a need for anyone else’s guidance unless I specifically asked for it. I am working a process of clearing out a lot of Bull Shit in my mind about beliefs I have held my entire life that have been nothing but lies and the convoluted misconceptions of those teaching it to me.
I recognize I CANNOT change the world, I can only change my perceptions about it. I am not a victim of the world I see around me and neither is anyone else. Unfortunately, not everyone understands this concept and love to blame others for what they think, feel and choose to believe. I am choosing differently for me.
Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.