Hello world. The following was written 8/25/2018.
A brother shared how they are experiencing a sense of being cut off from friends and family. How they can hear them, yet they cannot be heard. How this experience is causing them pain and confusion about what it is they are to do.
A brother shares, “It’s like there is some wall or impermeable barrier separating me from everyone I know and love. I can hear and see what they say, but I cannot connect. It’s like the impermeable barrier of death. Even the best of the best alchemists and magicians have only limited success in bringing the dead back to life. It takes a tremendous amount of energy to reach through the barrier and if the cost is to high. All your life force is drained from you. So which is better? Staying behind that barrier, alive or try and breach the barrier, hoping you have enough energy and strength enough to break through. Possibly at the cost of your life!”
My response, “Good morning brother. It sounds as if you are experiencing what my Guides call the “disconnect”. The “disconnect” seems to be were Holy Spirit “Isolates” us from everyone we know. During this time for me, Holy Spirit would have me turn within and begin looking at my life journey and all the myriad experiences I had that had caused me pain and suffering. Slowly Holy Spirit would point out all the myriad things I would judge and was TAUGHT to judge by my family and the other adults around me growing up.
Do not fight this isolation brother. The more you fight it the more it will tear you apart within as you spin your wheels trying to do this or that and never completing anything. My Husband is going through this isolation himself right now and it is causing him all kinds of pain and suffering. The purpose of this time is to have you turning within to Holy Spirit and ONLY Holy Spirit for ALL of your guidance. The idea is to get you to STOP chasing your brothers asking them for the answers you seek and to start turning inwards to Holy Spirit for all the answers you seek.
On my own journey I found I had to literally walk away from my “family” and anyone who would not accept or allow me to be as I am and who would not accept my Husband or my relationship with my Husband. My family used to tell me you cannot choose your family you only get to choose your friends. That IS a LIE. Every time a brother chooses a life partner they ARE choosing who their family will be from that point forward. That partner BECOMES their chosen family.
This time is for you to turn within to Holy Spirit and review all you have chosen for you to believe in. It is a time to begin asking questions of yourself and Holy Spirit as to WHY you would choose to accept and believe in the things you have chosen too. This time is for you to come to terms with your choices to be and believe and the opening of a door of opportunity to changing your mind and choosing differently from what you were INDOCTRINATED into accepting and believing yourself and your reality to be.
I hope this explanation is helpful for you on this next stage of your journey to healing. FYI, Holy Spirit will work in some mysterious ways. As I shared my Husband is going through his own isolation right now. His Mom was supposed to come visit us this weekend on her way down south to see her Father.
On Thursday while talking on the phone she had made suggestions to my Husband that we needed to close our business of 20 years and go find a 9–5 working for someone else so we can have a “steady reliable income”. As if anything out there is “steady and reliable”. Talk about lying to ones self. Needless to say that night Holy Spirit decided to CLOSE that door and had her calling us the next day to say her Husband is in hospital with vertigo and she would NOT be coming to visit us.
Her judgmental egoistic suggestions that we do as she dictate were not conducive to True healing. She was coming from an egoistic belief that some outside company would be more stable and secure than our 20 year business which we have struggle to build. That some external job would save us. That lie is what has many of our brothers homeless right now. Their belief that some job would save them. All it did is catapult them into the chaos they now find themselves in. They chose to believe something out there in the world would save them from their own choices to believe.
As I shared, DO NOT FIGHT this isolation you experience. The isolation is Holy Spirit’s way of getting you to stop blindly following and believing all the egoistic bull shit your family and friends would hand to you with an expectation that you follow and do as they tell you. It is Holy Spirit’s way of getting you to stop running away and to START LISTENING to HEAR what Holy Spirit has to say. When you have open access to the “Peanut Gallery” you choose to LISTEN to that “Peanut Gallery”. In isolating you Holy Spirit has effectively SHUT UP that “Peanut Gallery” so the only voice you hear now is Holy Spirit’s.
The time has come to turn within and only within to Holy Spirit my brother. The more you try to seek out there in the world in another the tighter your isolation seems to become. The more painful it feels. Recognize as you go through this how YOU are in judgment of what it is you are experiencing in those moments. It is your choices to judge that is causing that pain in those moments. Embrace your isolation as the gift it actually is from Holy Spirit my brother.”
Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.