Hello world. The following was written 4/3/2018.
A brother asked a question this morning which had me looking within to gain clarity and understanding of the answer to respond with. The following was their question and my response to them.
A brother asks, “Question for my BFOATS who will understand me: When do you know your ego is acting, what does it feel like? I know for me it is sneaky…Looking forward reading your wise responses and anybody else who knows what I m talking about. I look forward reading your wise responses…”
My response, “The simplest answer I am able to give here to your questions would be this, “triggered”. If I am being triggered in any way it is my ego trying to get into the driver’s seat. You see, I made a choice years ago to place my Ego in the back seat and I chose to hand the keys to Holy Spirit. In my mind I am shown my egoistic self with an attitude clawing, kicking, biting, and screaming in the back seat of my car I call my body. When I am being triggered by my animal companions squabbling over treats I may find myself snapping at them in an annoyed tone of voice to knock it off.
As for how it feels, in all honesty it actually depends on the situation how I am responding to it. There can be a turning of the stomach, a tightening of muscles and a shortness of temper. I have experienced copious tears and a torrent of tears as well as an angry violent rage where I am wanting to simply slap, beat, smash, scream, and maybe even shoot someone in the moment.
I have come to recognize in many ways the training I received growing up was to respond with my ego first. Due to this I have learned to take a step back and look within at what is being experienced and QUESTION IT before I respond. I will even walk away for a bit to have an in depth dialogue with Holy Spirit asking what it is I am experiencing or witnessing and what He would have me learn and understand from it.
In most cases, Holy Spirit will give me the understanding of the purpose of the situation and how it is of benefit to me and through me the rest of Humanity. Even in those moments I am responding with my egoistic thought system I am given the understanding and purpose of what the lesson was and how it is of benefit to me.
As I learn my lessons and heal I am to share what it is I am or have experienced and what it is Holy Spirit has taught me about them all. It is through this sharing of what is experienced and how they have been of benefit to me that helps my brothers see their own experiences in a different Light of perspective and are able to heal from their own trials and tribulations as I have done.
Holy Spirit has taught me to become a willing example of what is possible when one makes an active choice to stop seeking outside of them in the world and in their brothers and choose to turn within to Holy Spirit instead.
Holy Spirit is stating, “Humanity has been trained to blindly follow and mimic those who came before them. It is through this mimicry these examples become the tools of healing they are. For when your brothers choose to follow your examples they find themselves joining with Me and only Me in those moments. It is the Unconditional Love and Acceptance they are receiving in those moments to simply Be as they are which stands out to them the most. For what they receive is Love without judgment attached. It is this Eternal Love they crave and seek. It is this Eternal Love you become an example of for them in the moment.”
The understanding I have been given from Holy Spirit is every single thing I experience in my life happens for my benefit. To deny any part of any of it would be to deny the very essence of who I am as an Eternal Being. Everything I have experienced in my life has been something needed for me to grow and become the Being I AM. Even the things judged as being horrors such as rapes, molestations, exorcisms and beatings. If something is triggering one, giving conflict or pain look within with Holy Spirit and ask for the correction for the misconception. Holy Spirit has healed my heart, body and mind of the traumas I experienced as a child. All the things I mentioned above and then some. I went within and asked Holy Spirit for correction and received it. Ask and you will receive.
Blessing on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.