Hello world. The following was written 3/14/2018.
In 2004 I found myself in a living nightmare. I wrecked my motorcycle breaking my left arm and ankle. I spent two weeks in the hospital and eight months at home bedridden. I then spent a year and a half in a wheelchair. When I was laying in bed unable to move, wondering what it is I am supposed to do, to weak to open my meds., even with the pain making me wish I was dead. Inch by inch and pound by pound my weight increased. I was dying a slow and painful death.
Each time I went to the doctor I was given another pill and another diagnoses of another disease. By the end of that first year I was swallowing more pills then food every day and told I was dying of multiple diseases such as two forms of cancer and that NOTHING could be done for me. When I finally reached the end of my endurance six years had passed me by. Six years of painful unending misery. I was 275 lbs. standing at 5′ tall. I walked with a cane on my good days and a walker on the bad. Believing the doctors when they told me I would never walk unaided again and that I was dying.
Each day I used my hair as a veil. When I would sit there in the bathroom I would try to hide from my view the wretched scale. Each time I’d see it, I’d start to cringe. The mental torture becomes a no-win battle. I reached the end there pretty hard. I either wanted to die or prove them wrong. I decided to prove them wrong.
As I sat there praying for release in the form of death from my own personal hell I was guided by Holy Spirit to try doing things differently. I started by changing what I was eating. Then I started working on the meds. I was taking 14 pills four times a day. The more pills I was given the worse my health got. I was seeing a correlation here that the doctors were refusing to see. It was the doctor’s pills that were killing me.
I was living with migraines every single day. I was having my menses nonstop. I now had high blood pressure, sleep apnea, diabetes, IBS, anemia and two forms of cancer. Because of the medications I could no longer go out into the sun. My bones had become so brittle I was at risk of shattering something if I hit something the wrong way. I was on the fast track to death with my doctors guiding the way.
In 2009 I made a choice. I chose to go completely organic in what I was putting into and using on my person and in my environment. I started weening myself off of the medications I was on. I looked for natural alternatives. I found what I was looking for after a lot of research, asking questions and a lot of praying. Needless to say, the results were astounding.
Within 3 months of receiving the guidance to change what I was doing with my decision to go organic I lost 30 lbs. The first thing my doctors did was test me for drug use. Two weeks later my doctors call me with the lab results. The results were, I of course am completely clean. I then informed them I have also lost another 15 pounds. Their only response, was to continue doing whatever I am doing. It seems to be working.
At my largest of 275 lbs. I was wearing a size 26–28 in clothes and a size 8 in shoes. As of last night, when I stepped on the scale I am now weighing in at 170 lbs. I am now down to a size 14 and it is loose. My shoe size has now dropped to a size 6–6 1/2. I am now able to walk primarily unaided by cane or walker any more. I still have my bad days. Except now they are no longer the nightmare they once were.
In following the guidance Holy Spirit was giving me I have found myself healing. Healing physically, mentally, and emotionally. In my willingness to stop listening to what was being said to me by others and to look only within to Holy Spirit I am being healed. Holy Spirit is showing me anything is possible when I walk with Him. I am walking with Him and I no longer need the aid of a cane or a walker. Life is good.
It is the trials and tribulations we experience which propel us forward into growing. Those lessons learned are the stepping stones along the path which is our journey. Each one was covered in a substance which hid it from our view. As we cleared the debris of the beliefs held, our steps became sure and true. No longer floundering in fear and indecision as to what next, we shall do. Recognize the silver lining within the experience. The choices you made to believe as you do. Seeing those choices, you get to choose again. Changing your mind and view of what was to what is.
Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.