Hello world. The following was written 10/04/2017.
We spent the weekend working in Sacramento. We did two hours of driving to get to the location on Friday, with two hours of work. Then another two hours on Sunday to get to location, with around 5 hours onsite. All of these work hours would have been doubled, if there were not two of us working in tandem, to get the job done.
The office we were working in had the carpets replaced. The chemical smell was almost overwhelming in the office, as was the heat. We could not get the building manager to turn on the air conditioning in the office. By the time we finished, we were both feeling irritable and tired.
On the way home we found ourselves constantly yawning and feeling very drained. When we got home, we decided to take a nap. This was around 6 PM. I woke up around 10:20 PM. I stayed awake for maybe an hour, then went back to bed. We woke up this morning around 8 AM, a little after actually. I slept for 13 hours total last night.
When we were done at the office and had left to go home, I started getting chills. All night last night I was freezing with teeth chattering. I even found myself walking sideways in a daze, when I woke up at 10 PM the night before. The only cause we could think of for these reactions physically, were those chemicals we were breathing in. My body does not do well with foreign substances. It literally tries to shut down, as it did last night.
This morning the chills are gone and I am feeling better. Even my body aches and pains are tolerable this morning. These reactions my body has are becoming more and more acute. They are showing me how my environment is and does effect me, on multiple levels.
Awareness, is the key to maintaining balance and serenity within myself, no matter what is happening around me or in me. My willingness to pay attention and internalize what I am experiencing, helps in finding the answers within me and not out there in the world. No longer am I pointing fingers and placing blame, as if I am a victim of this world I am perceiving. I recognize any reactions I may be experiencing are my own and I am responsible for them.
As I sit here this morning contemplating this experience I have had, I am able to see when, where, how and why I was experiencing the things I was. I am able to see and understand what was happening within me. Looking at these types of things and questioning them has helped me to perceive my own choices and beliefs. How my choices to believe effect my experiences in day to day life. I am the one in control and I am the one with the ability to change my own mind about the things I perceive. No one may do this for me. I must willingly look within and do this for myself. Make these changes within myself. Choose to change my own mind about this world I perceive.
Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.