Hello world. The following was written 3/20/2018.
Yesterday I had posted a channeled message talking about the Event that has already started. Some of the responses to the post have been quite interesting and even telling in regards where my brothers are at on their own journeys. Their unwillingness to question that which they have chosen to believe becomes obvious. The following is one such dialogue between my brothers, my husband Alex and myself.
My brother states, “Not true another ego illusion.”
Alex responds, “Everything our 5 senses tell us is an ego illusion right? So in that sense, from that perspective, your above reply of ,”Not true another ego illusion”, could apply too everything of this world.”
My response, “Including everything you think and believe yourself, your brothers and this world to be. Every single one was taught to you and you chose to accept and believe everything that has been handed to you by someone else. Even the belief you are required to follow mans laws which whittle away and take away your rights of Sovereignty and Free Will given you by God. You are not and have not been following God’s Laws here. You have been choosing to follow and believe in mans laws. Mans laws ARE the illusion brother.”
A brother responds, “If things are healing/helpful, they reflect God and if they generate fear or separation they reflect ego.”
Alex responds, “What is seen is but a reflection of the eyes that are doing the seeing for the outside world is but a reflection of an inwards condition.”
My response, “If everything being experienced or is being brought before us is for our benefit and through us all of Humanity, how then could anything go wrong, be wrong, not helpful or healing? Only when one is picking, choosing and judging does there seem to be separation and differences in what is being experienced and or perceived.”
Our brother responds, “We have split minds! So good/beauty/kindness can be reflected in this world, just as terror/disasters/attack also can be reflected here. It depends on who you CHOOSE to view it all with — ego or Holy spirit.”
My response, “Yes brother, it is a choice being made by the Individual to choose ego or Holy Spirit. In everything I am choosing Holy Spirit. For in choosing Holy Spirit I am healed of all I thought I was being victimized with. It is a choice. Each of us get to choose who we shall follow. Will we blindly follow and believe our brothers and the ego they believe in or do we turn within and choose to follow Holy Spirit instead.
As I have shared and shown again and again, I DO NOT follow ANYONE other than HOLY SPIRIT. I DO NOT follow Ken Wapnick or anyone else who has been teaching this course. I have been shown unequivocally THEY are not in their right minds. They do not teach the student to turn within and seek the Teacher within them. They teach instead the student should follow blindly the teacher here in this world. The student should do as they are told and NOT QUESTION the teacher. It is all bullshit!
In healing myself of every single disease I was diagnosed with I know this is the TRUTH. I have been shown THIS IS TRUTH! I Stand in my Light of Truth no matter what it is my brothers are choosing for themselves.”
Our brother responds, “Sabrina Reyenga said: I do not follow anyone’. That is a way to become rather confused, Sabrina. It may ‘seem’ right, but that is the very way ego can keep us in its clutches. This does not mean you ‘follow someone blindly’ — but that you continue reading teachers of enlightenment, whether Thic Nat Hahn, Ramana Maharshi, Krisnamurti, or Ken Wapnick (or others of your liking). To learn ANY discipline means to find teachers that understand it. Whether physics, poetry, acting or spirituality….we need to seek the wisdom of others. This is not a solitary path and ‘no man is an island.’ Thinking that way you will ‘plateau’ for nothing will ‘stretch/shift’ your thinking. That would be ‘ego’ in its strongest form!’
I will let you be — for I hear you feel ‘loftier’ than your brothers — which will keep us apart. This path is for ‘joining’ not competing or proclaiming how we have healed things! That is ‘making ourself special.’ So even if an enlightened one DID heal something physical — they would never use that as a platform to convince others how ‘special’ they are — and that kind of thing leads us ‘off Course!’”
My response, “Those are no more than your own projections and judgmental bullshit. Own your own shit and stop handing your rights and Sovereignty away. Your brothers are not your saviors here and YOU cannot save your brothers. Each of us must be willing to turn within and seek Holy Spirit and ONLY Holy Spirit. We are to STOP blindly following and believing what we read in books and are told by another out there in the world. If what I share does not resonate then scroll past it and stop reading it. You are not asked for a response and one is not needed.
As I stated in another article, I no longer regurgitate the bullshit I read in a book or some so called teacher stated. I share my personal experiences and the lessons I have learned through them. I share how every single experience has been of benefit to me and through me all of Humanity. I share of how EVERY rape, molestation, beating, exorcism, caning, mental and emotional abuse I have experienced was of benefit to me. How I would not be who I am with the understandings I am given if I had never experienced those things I have. So far, I have yet to witness a single teacher of this course or any other religious or Spiritual Belief System share the same. Not one has shared how they have been healed. Not one has shared how the course or their chose belief system is proven to be True through the healing of their personal experiences. All any of them do is seems to regurgitate a concept and an idea of what they were told or think the materials are referring to.
The proof is in the LIVING of the principles, not believing in a concept or idea of it. Drop two feet from your head into your heart. For the ego is in your head and Holy Spirit resides within the heart.”
Our brother responds, “It is words and how we use them in our vommunications — and who we want to make wrong or right!! This is what ACIM is trying to teach us.
You say to drop to ‘heart’ but heart is feelings and ACIM as well as Bible teach that our heart/feelings lie! ACIM uses ‘mind’ as a ‘knowing’ that is outside of space and time — not in a body.
You may want me to ‘scroll’ past it — but there are many, many others reading this board. It is not only you and me! So I share points made so as to be ‘helpful’ — and you, too, can simply ‘scroll past it!’
I did say ‘not to follow blindly’ — did you not read that? Do you want to make me ‘wrong?’ Or join where we can? Calling a brother’s understanding ‘bullshit’ and ‘projections’ is NOT doing ACIM as Jesus asks of us. You can of course, but it is not ACIM you are teaching.”
My response, “Continue believing that and see how far it takes you. How long have you been stuck in the same rut now? I was lying in a bed dying of two forms of cancer when Holy Spirit came to me and showed me the Truth. I learned this before I ever heard of ACIM. I was healed of all disease before I ever heard of ACIM. ACIM showed up in my mailbox anonymously when I was lying in that bed dying back in 2004. I did not start doing anything with ACIM until 2013. I was healed of all cancer and other diseases by 2011. You see ACIM was a finishing tool for me Holy Spirit used to show me how psychology has been used to brainwash myself and Humanity. The people who wrote the course were psychologists. Everything they do is a form of controlled psychological manipulation.”
Our brother responds, “ACIM is NOT about that. I have had similar experiences — but that does not make us voices for ACIM. And thinking so not only leaves you ‘stuck’ (as you so kindly chose to see in me and say so!) — but sends the wrong message to new people so take them ‘off Course.’ So I share. You think I am stuck? That is what you (want to) think. And I know is not true at all…..but need not PROVE it to anyone. I get that you do not really get the point of ACIM — so we speak of very different things.”
My Guides respond, “ALL IDOLS MUST FALL! If Humanity is to heal themselves all idols must fall. They place the teacher on a pedestal instead of seeing the teacher as their equal. The teacher knows this and uses this to keep the student under them. They choose to keep the student forever following the carrot on the stick they dangle before them. Always telling them they are almost there. They do not have it quite right yet. The carrot is dangled as they reach into your pockets and pick you dry.”
Our brother responds, “That is the ‘story’ you tell yourself. So those ‘out there’ are ‘wrong’ while you ‘know.’ — Not the top of the ladder.”
My response, “By the way, you may not want to be talking to me. Remember how you judged me and that which I am able to do? I am the evil one who channels, has visions, does hands on healing and is able to transfer the pain and suffering from one being to another. Remember telling me I was evil brother?”
Our brother responds, “You believe that about yourself? I do not so why you saying what I believe? This is EXACTLY what ACIM asks us to look at in OURSELVES — so we do not project what we think on to others. You are exactly where you are. Not better, not worse than anyone else. But do not quite understand what ACIM is trying to teach us about how we are to relate to each other here — in the illusion — in order to make it ‘a better way.’”
My response, “Oh how quickly they forget what they say and do.
Something to consider, not everyone learns the same way. I am a high school drop out with a severe learning disability. I happen to be severely dyslexic. What I have learned in my 46 years in this reality, is Holy Spirit and my Guides have been using my dyslexia as a tool to keep me from falling into the pits and traps my brothers have. As a child I was gifted with abilities to hear and see the dead, know what another’s intentions were and who was telling half truths or being completely dishonest. I could see through the false masks and facades my brothers place before themselves as being who they want their brothers to perceive them to be. It was these abilities which earned me many a beating, caning and exorcism until I learned to stop speaking of what I was experiencing and perceiving.
By the way, I learned all of this by the time I turned five. I did not start speaking until I was two years old and I started using complete sentences. I have shared how at 9 months old I made my first choice to judge what I was experiencing after being force fed and kicked across a room by my paternal grandmother killing me. Her actions caused a domino effect within me of judging what I was experiencing as if I deserved it and had done something wrong. Those were my choices to judge and believe based on what I was experiencing.
Now consider your own first experiences in this life that have stuck with you and played havoc in the background of your reality. How many of those experiences did you choose to judge or accept judgments about it as defining you, your brothers and this reality you perceive?”
Our brother responds, “That is all fine and well. But you only know about your own experiences while others are given gifts too. And we all want to express our gifts too. You are mot ‘special.’ So express your gifts. But do not make others wrong, or say it is ACIM — when ACIM is about not making differences for better or worse, bur seeing our Oneness. I am about to tutor my autistic 7th grader. His mother and father love me as hus tutor because I see him ‘whole.’ He has some wonderful gifts. But also some limitations here. And don’t we all??”
My response, “I am no different than you. The only one choosing to see a difference here is YOU. I am your equal in every way. Everything I do, you are able to do. The only difference here is I am choosing to accept who I AM as I AM without judgments. I am shown how my brothers are trapped in their beliefs and how they may free themselves. In everything I share examples of my own experiences so my brothers may see their own in a different Light and perspective than that which they have been trained to perceive. In everything I tell my brothers to TURN WITHIN to Holy Spirit and ask HIS GUIDANCE and to stop seeking it outside of them.
I am not here seeking followers brother. I am here to walk beside my brothers shoulder to shoulder as equals. Taking each step towards our Sovereignty together. ACIM is teaching us to take back our Sovereignty of Being and Free Will of choice to be Self Governing so Self Reliant given us by God above. This is what ACIM is teaching. Not this Farce of follow me I know the way, do as I tell you bull shit it has been turned into, just as every other religious doctrine has been turned into. All have been turned into a tool to beat our brothers into submission with. A tool of controlled manipulations.”
Our brother responds, “No one is saying what you are ascribing me to be saying. This may be what you don’t yet see so see in me what I am NIT doing. And THIS is what ACIM is teaching — how we CHOOSE to hear and see fir our own avantage or to make someone else ‘wrong.’ So how about we just agree to disagree — without the need to decide who knows more?”
My response, “Apparently you do not proofread what it is you are writing brother. Not just for the edification of making corrections in ones spelling and grammar. It is also for the edification of asking Holy Spirit if what you are responding with IS the Truth or coming from the trained egoistic response system you have been taught to perceive and respond to everything through. I personally have found in all instances unless I am channeling, my ego responds first so I am to ALWAYS step back and question with Holy Spirit as to what HE would have me respond with.
So far every one of my brothers I have had dialogues with who are actually doing the inner work needed have stated they too experience a recognition within them of what it is they experience with their own ego minds and having to step back and ask for Inner Guidance from Holy Spirit. So far you have not once stated this in any of the conversations we have ever had in any of the groups and or on any of the mutual acquaintances we may have who post. Instead you quote what you have read in a book or some “teacher/guru” has stated or said to you personally.
As I have stated to you before, you do no more than regurgitate that which you read in a book or someone else has said. You refuse to look within at what it is you are and have been choosing to believe. Nor are you willing to look within at what you are actually in judgment of about yourself and your brothers. All you have chosen for you will be your burden to bare and heal from. Your choices to place your brother on a pedestal has you defending an illusion that does not exist anywhere but in your own mind. Same with your choices to believe what is written in a book is the absolute Truth. Each one would be you handing away your own responsibility to choose for yourself to someone else. All in a guise to make yourself a victim when they do not choose to believe as you have chosen to.
You are not a victim here in any way. It is your own choices to judge your brothers that has that ache building within you. As your muscles tighten and your stomach churns you continue to mentally twist and turn trying to find an argument, a way to defend yourself and your precious idols and beliefs.
Another point to consider here would be this constant choice to deny that which is experienced. In denying what is experienced you deny yourself a chance to grow and evolve Spiritually. You lock yourself into a cage of your own making. Each time you choose to push away that which is being brought before you to contemplate by faking it until you make it, with fake happiness and joy, you prolong your own suffering with that denial to turn within and look at what has been brought before you for questioning. In everything you do all this to yourself with the choices you have chosen in where you have placed your faith, trust and belief. For it is not in Holy Spirit you have turned to. In Truth you continue to turn to a brother to play the authority to your victim role you have chosen to perceive yourself to be.”
Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.