Hello world. The following was written 05/09/2024.
To move forward one may have to step back. One may have to tear down what was built in order to build something new. In those moments it may seems as if the world is falling apart. All one knows is torn away. It is in hind sight you learn, it was for your benefit.
Judge not what others are choosing and experiencing. Instead look at yourself and what you are choosing for you and experiencing too. What others do and choose has nothing to do with you, unless they are trying to harm themselves, someone else or another’s property. Only then are you asked to step forward and stop whatever is occurring. Until those moments whatever others are choosing are their choices and you do not get a say in any of it.
You do not know what anything they are going through on their journey is for or what lessons they are to learn from them. Them sharing where they are at and experiencing is for the benefit of all of Humanity. They are examples to those witnessing what is being experienced has a universal effect from which everyone who chooses to listen to hear and learn from others shall gain the benefits of. Nothing is as it seems to be nor as you would assume so believe either.
I have contemplated my journey and the experiences I have had. Looking back upon the situations which played out then and recognizing how it was for my benefit. I didn’t know it back then as it was occurring, due to the pain and suffering I was experiencing during it.
My pain and suffering came from my own fears of the unknown and an unwillingness to let go of what I thought I knew and believed to be real and true. Sometimes all one knows must be torn down and removed in order for them to move forward in a new direction with a different purpose and sometimes a different way of getting there.
All to often one may find themselves in a situation when one thing on top of another occurs. In those moments one may feel as if they are being punished. Whatever plans they have made must be changed. Issues crop up which were not foreseen, causing one to scramble to find a solution. Each one pushing them in a different direction of which they had not considered before. They are not alone in these experiences of having one thing on top of another stacking up, as if the Universe is out to get them.
My Husband and I found our business shut down when new legislation on contractors passed. We lost our home after a two years in court, forcing us to move into an RV the day after my Husbands birthday in 2019. We then found ourselves shoved out of California in 2021 when CV restrictions were loosened for travel.
We have been traveling from place to place for “Temp or Seasonal” work since then. We ran a computer repair business for 20+ years, yet can’t find a decent paying gig in the field anywhere, that isn’t spearheaded by some foreign based corporation being used as middlemen to pay the least amount of money possible and bypass taxes, laws and regulations regarding things like vaccination, insurance and disability pay. All of those companies are also doing DEI hiring based on ethnicity and not merit or capability. We have had to take on the odd job here and there to feed ourselves. We are in Colorado on a job site, of which we barely made it too.
Our rig is around 28 years old and has blown the pistons and rings. When we bought our rig back in 2016 or so, she wasn’t running. The RV’s fuel pump failed, it had electrical issues, generator issues, roof damage and it had damage from leaks. We replaced the fuel pump, fixed the roof ourselves, repaired the water damaged interior, repaired the generator and electrical issues ourselves. We did not have the luxury of paying someone else to do the work needed and there were no businesses in our area who could do it.
Funny thing, is the timing in hind sight. It is in hind sight we learn, it was for our benefit. We wanted to leave California but didn’t know where to go, how to get there or how to divest ourselves of the responsibility of property and business. God did it all for us! Though it was painful at the time we were going through it, all of it was for our benefit, edification and Spiritual growth on our journey. We just didn’t realize it until later or now as we look back to review some life events.
This seems to be where God wants us right now and at least until October when this “seasonal” job ends. Which is a good thing since our rig cannot move now. Also, we don’t have the funds for parts nor to pay someone to do the work either. Nor can we do the work needed where we are at “IF” it requires a full engine tear down. Alternately, a new(for us) rig is also out, as it would be more expensive than just repairing what we have.
Every penny we have is going towards survival and to pay down $10K+ in bills incurred since Joe Biden TOOK office. We have gone through hell and though there seems no end in sight, we keep stepping forward. We are taking each day as it comes, trusting and having faith we shall get through this too. Whatever is occurring is for our benefit, edification and Spiritual growth on our journey. If it isn’t something meant for us, we don’t experience it.
Sometimes on the journey all one knows must be torn down and removed in order for them to move forward in a new direction. Sometimes with a different purpose and sometimes a different way of getting there, as we are now having to consider the possibility of, just as we had to back in 2019. And, sometimes what is needed is for one to be able to articulate and express what they are “feeling”, experiencing and thinking in order to see a way through it all.
What others think of our choices, have no baring or meaning and cannot effect us until we choose to accept and believe in them so live them for ourself. We are not required to conform, comply or adhere to what others would dictate and choose. We are allowed to do us and choose differently than other’s are choosing to. Whatever is occurring is for our benefit whether we know it in these moments, as all is occurring.
Whatever happens, we learn to embrace it and realize there is something better coming our way. We just have to be willing to accept whatever is occurring and let go of whatever it is which seems to be being torn from us right now. It may feel overwhelming, depressing and infuriating, and that is okay to express and articulate all of it as well as we are able to.
Nothing is going wrong if all is for our benefit and we are not required to be as others would judge or demand we be. In these moments things are occurring, one has no knowledge or understandings of the why’s or what all was for. It is during the reviews after time has passed they learn how all was for their benefit. Just as my Husband and I have been learning our past experiences and current ones are and will be for our benefit with lessons we shall learn from them.
Please be the Light, I know you to be. Please be the Light, I see you to be. Please be the Light, you are meant to be. Please CHOOSE, to be the LIGHT.
Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.