Hello world. The following was written 8/24/2016.
This dis-ease this disease.
This dis-ease this disease.
This dis-ease within me. This disease within me.
This dis-ease within me, causes me pain.
This dis-ease within me, has me suffering again.
This dis-ease within me, has blinded me in it’s acuteness.
This dis-ease within me, has caused me to run in fear again.
This dis-ease within me, has taken form.
This dis-ease within me, has become a norm.
This dis-ease within me, haunts me day and night.
This dis-ease this disease.
This dis-ease this disease.
This dis-ease within me. This disease within me.
This disease within me, eats me from within.
This disease within me, shows me all my sins.
This disease within me, shows the world my shame.
This disease within me, shows the world my pain.
This dis-ease this disease.
This dis-ease this disease.
This dis-ease within me. This disease within me.
This disease within me, holds me in a cell.
This disease within me, is my manifestation of hell.
This disease within me, I have judged as insane.
This disease within me, is part of the game.
This dis-ease this disease.
This dis-ease this disease.
This dis-ease within me. This disease within me.
My dis-ease caused my disease.
The putrid lies I have believed.
The judgments which you handed me.
The ones I have chosen to believe.
This dis-ease this disease.
This dis-ease this disease.
This dis-ease within me. This disease within me.
They are the ones which taught me shame.
They are the ones which taught me blame.
They are the ones which taught me guilt.
A house of twigs from which I built.
This dis-ease this disease.
This dis-ease this disease.
This dis-ease within me. This disease within me.
A false façade and mask for me.
A fake life and reality.
Based on the judgments taught to me.
Hidden behind walls so none may see.
This dis-ease this disease.
This dis-ease this disease.
This dis-ease within me. This disease within me.
The inner hatred.
The constant pain.
The nightmarish repeats.
It’s all the same.
This dis-ease this disease.
This dis-ease this disease.
This dis-ease within me. This disease within me.
Seeking and searching.
Not willing to look.
At all the steps.
I already took.
This dis-ease this disease.
This dis-ease this disease.
This dis-ease within me. This disease within me.
In stillness and silence.
I found the key.
To release the lock from the cage.
Which has bound me.
This dis-ease this disease.
This dis-ease this disease.
This dis-ease within me. This disease within me.
It has cause me so much pain.
At times I thought I would go insane.
I found the cure in my mind.
If I judged it made me die.
This dis-ease this disease.
This dis-ease this disease.
This dis-ease within me. This disease within me.
Each judgment made.
A hole creates.
Filled with the vagaries of disease.
Those things I found were killing me.
This dis-ease this disease.
This dis-ease this disease.
This dis-ease within me. This disease within me.
When I finally let them go.
In that instant I was whole.
In letting go my dis-ease.
I let go the disease that was in me.
Sabrina Reyenga
Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.