Hello world. The following was written 8/23/2018.
My Husband responded to a brothers post regarding Alex Jones. This garnered a response where I was dragged into the conversation. The following is the dialogue which transpired between my brothers, Husband and I.
Brother one states, “Alex Reyenga I wish you could step outside yourself (and your wife’s hypnotic influence over you) to see you are coming from a place of deep paranoia. I’m sad for you Alex. You think you’re immune to the traps your own mind has set for you.
That’s the NATURE OF THE MIND, Alex. IT PROJECTS, it doesn’t SEE. Seriously, how are you missing this????? We can’t perceive what has no reference point inside our own minds. We contain what we are “seeing.” That’s the whole basis of ACIM. Your wife is committed to specialness, her there’s little hope for.
I don’t have “special” knowledge. I’m imperfect — no more and no less than another. I try to follow a TEACHING I believe in. I TRUST the teaching more than I trust my ego. Oh, and I mistakenly wrote “unfriend.” I meant unfollow.”
My response, “All of this is coming from a Being who has refused to read anything I have shared on my wall about my journey. Instead you choose to judge and try to destroy another’s relationship. What you despise of me is the fact I am a Psychic Intuitive Empath who sees through your false facades and masks to the Truth of who you are and what you are doing. You are a pretender. You pretend to be that which you are not. You are not a teacher, but a con artist pretending to be the guru to gain more followers. All in a guise to pick their pockets for whatever money you may siphon from them in the guise of helping them learn on their journey. You are a fraud, a pretender of the worst kind, for you prey upon those who have not yet learned to discern Truth from Lie.”
Brother two responds, “What you wrote is so mean and judgmental, Sabrina. Nasty. Oh, and fuck Alex Jones.”
My response, “Projection, you are projecting out your own judgmental egoistic beliefs. Look in a mirror. Your envy proceeds you.”
Brother two responds, “I’m not projecting anything at all, Sabrina. I have never met either of you personally. I don’t even live nearby. But I can smell a skunk a mile away.”
My response, “Every judgment is a projection of what you think and believe yourself to be.”
Alex responds, “Brother two, Every time you point the finger at someone else you are projecting out onto others what you believe to be true about yourself. That is why forgiveness of self and forgiveness of others is needed and necessary. For the outside world is but an outward projection of an inward condition.”
Brother two responds, “Dude, did you read the same post I did. It is filled with judgment and condemnation of brother one. Nothing to do with me.”
Alex responds, “ “Oh, and fuck Alex Jones.” Nope, this has nothing to do with you or your judgments. You are a totally innocent bystander here.”
Brother two responds, “What does my opinion of Jones have to do with anything?”
Alex responds, “You tell me, you chose to comment on this thread.”
Brother two responds, “If I am judgmental toward Jones is not connected to my appraisal of those mean and nasty comments. I get it. You’re a MAGA head.”
Alex responds to brother two, “We are speaking of your judgments such as: “I get it. You’re a MAGA head.” Do you not see your own judgments that you shared above and on this comment thread. Do you not see your own judgments when it comes to your response to my wife?”
Brother one responds, “Sabrina Reyenga I am just curious … you and your hubby are saying that Judgement is a projection of one self and the values one believes and is true bout oneself. Is this not correct? If this is the case and you believe your words to be wisdom … than you are saying … that you … as well … are perpetrator of relationship destroying. Isn’t this correct? And the fact that you are here spewing blame on others ..an act of judging?? Is this not correct? AND yes ..I went to your wall where the first thing that I see next to your profile picture is a background Meme that states “I let it go!” Is this not correct?? I am simply curious as whether this is just selective judging at your convenience or is it random choices in times of anger OR is it that you wish all human kind to “Do as I say and not as I do?” One might take this under consideration as you have already made a lasting first impression and well … it was your choices. Best of luck in all you do!”
My response, “Brother one, you are not just curious for starters. Each one of your “questions” are loaded judgmental questions gauged to garner a validating response to your own judgmental beliefs. Try asking an honest question which is not leading nor loaded with your own judgmental belief and you will be able to see the answer for yourself without my response being needed. I bare witness to what my brothers choose and then testify to what is witnessed.
By the way, reading three words at the top of ones page does not garner reading an article they have written and shared of their own personal experiences and the lessons learned from them. May I suggest you consider reading one or two of the articles I have written before choosing to respond again? As a matter of fact here is one, “You do to your children what has been done to you.” and here is another, “My brothers are seeing what they are wanting and choosing to believe.”
Brother one responds, “Sabrina Reyenga You have no idea what love is. Your mind is twisted. You believe your story should matter to others: error #1. You believe you have “let go” yet you are dragging around an historical novel describing your life.”
Brother two responds, “What is the difference between being a true believer in Islam, a true believer in Jesus, and being a true believer in ACIM? Nothing.”
Brother one responds to brother two, “That has proved to be true, which is why I’m grateful when other ACIM students come to my page to argue its points. It’s as open to misinterpretation as the Bible and Quran because fools will believe they understand wisdom. I don’t know what KEY terms in the work mean because I lack the direct experience that would show me. ACIM is about transcending the world, not judging it. Not being WHOLLY committed to the teaching is what leaves me judgmental and hypocritical — faults I never deny I have.”
Alex responds to brother two, “ACIM is not a religion, it is a guide, a pathway to truth and true perception. It helps one to connect to the Holy Spirit and God within to be able to discern the truth of all things. It is the gateway that allows for the miracle of the abolishing time and hastens the end of time itself.”
My response to brother one, “You are projecting again.”
Brother one responds, “Alex Reyenga If you read the Urtext ACIM is described as a religion in the true, original sense of the word. The language and meanings of the course are not meant to be applied to the illusion, they’re meant to walk us OUT of it.”
My response to brother two, “There are no differences between them. Each is a choice being made to believe by the Individual.”
Brother one responds, “Sabrina Reyenga Okay, we see you’re a one-trick pony. I get it, I project, that’s what we humans DO. Alex Reyenga What you fail to understand is that the Course is not for you to teach it to someone else.”
Alex responds to brother one, “The question here is are you speaking to me or are you speaking to yourself?”
My response to brother one, “Something to consider here, what I share are my personal experiences and the lessons learned through them. ACIM was a finishing school for me. It showed up in my mail box after I had already healed my cancers and other diseases without medications or surgeries, anonymously in 2009. I did not do anything with the course until 2013. At the end of that year I had gained the understandings behind the psychological indoctrination all of Humanity has been put through to believe in an illusion of lies which are powered by our own belief in them. How we shackle ourselves with the invisible rules and laws we choose to obey willingly which someone else has dictated we are to conform to.
I was guided to set the book aside after the first year for my Training by Holy Spirit had been completed on that portion of my journey. I am now to share what was experienced, as it was experienced, holding nothing back. I am to share how I perceived it to be and how my mind has shifted with understanding the choices I had been making to perceive as I was. I am to share how these shifts in perspective have changed my purview on all I thought and believed in as being True. I am to share how as my beliefs changed, the world around me changed with me, to reflect what it is I had learned through this knew understanding.
Not everyone blindly follows, accepts and believes in a book or what another is telling them is the Truth. Some of us share the EXPERIENTIAL ASPECTS of the journey which have shown us TRUTH and has been PROVEN to US by HOLY SPIRIT.”
Brother one responds, “Alex Reyenga “ACIM is the gateway that allows for the miracle of the abolishing time and hastens the end of time itself.”
And yet since its inception I have met not ONE single person who has met that goal. I HAVE met plenty who believe they have. In Buddhist terms its called mithyia samadhi or false awakening. The subltest of ego traps.
Sabrina Reyenga Truth can NEVER be prived by an “other” dear, be it spirit or discarnate. The fact that you take credit for healing your body yourself (form is of no consequence) shows you have misunderstood the Course. Healing is not a physical accomplishment. You are absolutely trapped at the earthly level (with tge rest of us). You would know that if you’d ever risen above it.”
My response, “Brother one, that belief right there is what keeps you locked in the cage you have built for yourself in your own mind. It is one of those invisible shackles which you have chosen to wear. I am not confined any longer as you seem to want to be. I am no longer limited by that which my brothers are choosing to believe themselves to be.”
Brother one responds, “Sabrina Reyenga Wow, did you think I would accept that as true? Language isn’t truth. Saying you’re free means nothing. You’ve proved you are not.”
Alex responds to brother one, “Jesus isn’t really a person, his body died a long time ago. So that does make him hard to meet in the physical world. But many have claimed to meet him within in another world, in the mind, where ever that is. I don’t claim to have completed ACIM by any means. If I had I would not be here. I am here, in time and space, in the illusion of separation along with you brother one. None of us will leave this world without the world itself coming along. For the outside world is but an outward projection of an inward condition. This is what is meant by we are One. We literally are One.”
Brother one responds, “Alex Reyenga To myself. There’s only one if us here.”
My response to brother one, “I did heal myself. For it is the very act I chose of turning within and questioning my choices to believe which released me from the pain and suffering I had created within me. The very act of choosing again, is one taking responsibility for themselves and what they are choosing to believe. All Holy Spirit does is hold the door open and points out the Truth, you are the one in control of you and what you experience. If you have pain and disease it is a choice you make to believe. It was Holy Spirit saying to me when I asked to be healed which shifted my perspectives and how I was perceiving. Holy Spirits words to me where, “HEALER, Heal Thyself!”, which is what I did!”
Brother one responds, “Alex Reyenga The outside world is the projection of a twisted mind. When there is no longer an inside and outside a new world is born.
Sabrina Reyenga Sickness is separation, not cancer. All illness is mental illness. The way you define it, a person cannot be healed if their body harbors cancer. That’s simply untrue.”
Alex responds to brother one, “text-05–08.html There have been many healers who did not heal themselves. They have not moved mountains by their faith because their faith was not whole. Some of them have healed the sick at times, but they have not raised the dead. Unless the healer heals himself, he cannot believe that there is no order of difficulty in miracles. He has not learned that every mind God created is equally worthy of being healed because God created it whole. You are merely asked to return to God the mind as he created it. He asks you only for what he gave, knowing that this giving will heal you. Sanity is wholeness, and the sanity of your brothers is yours.
manual_08.html The body’s eyes will continue to see differences. But the mind that has let itself be healed will no longer acknowledge them. There will be those who seem to be “sicker” than others, and the body’s eyes will report their changed appearances as before. But the healed mind will put them all in one category; they are unreal. This is the gift of its Teacher; the understanding that only two categories are meaningful in sorting out the messages the mind receives from what appears to be the outside world. And of these two, but one is real. Just as reality is wholly real, apart from size and shape and time and place — for differences cannot exist within it — so too are illusions without distinctions. The one answer to sickness of any kind is healing. The one answer to all illusions is truth.
text-12–03.html If only the loving thoughts of God’s Son are the world’s reality, the real world must be in his mind. His insane thoughts, too, must be in his mind, but an internal conflict of this magnitude he cannot tolerate. A split mind is endangered, and the recognition that it encompasses completely opposed thoughts within itself is intolerable. Therefore the mind projects the split, not the reality. Everything you perceive as the outside world is merely your attempt to maintain your ego identification, for everyone believes that identification is salvation. Yet consider what has happened, for thoughts do have consequences to the thinker. You have become at odds with the world as you perceive it, because you think it is antagonistic to you. This is a necessary consequence of what you have done. You have projected outward what is antagonistic to what is inward, and therefore you would have to perceive it this way. That is why you must realize that your hatred is in your mind and not outside it before you can get rid of it; and why you must get rid of it before you can perceive the world as it really is.
I hope you are getting the context of what I am sharing here brother one. It ties in with both the dialogue you are having with me and Sabrina Reyenga. This is what I have been guided to share.”
My response to brother one, “What you just stated makes no sense. I had two forms of cancer and many other diseases as well as a broken body when I healed myself of all I was going through back in 2004–2009 before the blue book came to me. I HEALED all WITHOUT using medications or surgeries. I did this HEALING by turning within to HOLY SPIRIT and ONLY Holy Spirit for my Guidance. It was Holy Spirit who told me, “HEALER, Heal Thyself!”.”
Brother one responds, “Alex Reyenga The Course is a religion.
“If the Crucifixion is seen from an upside down point of view, it certainly does appear AS IF God permitted, and even encouraged, one of his Sons to suffer BECAUSE he was good. Many very devoted ministers preach this every day. This particularly unfortunate interpretation, which actually arose out of the combined misprojection of a large number of my own would-be followers, has led many people to be bitterly afraid of God.
This particularly anti-religious concept happens to enter into many religions, and this is neither by chance nor coincidence.”
I think you are not seeing religion in the same light that I am. Religion is a bond between ONE person and the TEACHING. That bond may inspire us to extend ourselves DEMONSTRATING LOVE, not proselytizing about it.
Sabrina Reyenga Alex Reyenga. Succinctly put, you two are trying to intermix levels. I know I’m playing in the illusion right now. God is NOT a part of this world, and I don’t confuse the two.”
Alex responds to brother one, “You are not alone. God has and always will be with you and inside of you always, for you are part of him. The perfect does not create imperfection, no, you are perfect as you are created to be. Nothing has gone wrong. Everything always has and always will be in his hands. There are no mistakes, no accidents. Everything has a purpose and a reason.”
Brother one responds, “Alex Reyenga Why do you have to mention “guides” at all. We’re all guided. All of us. Sabrina Reyenga You are defining healing as a cancer-free body. That’s perfectly fine. I was merely stating that that’s not how the Course defines healing.
Alex, I don’t get into “purpose” and “reason.” It offers the ego too much temptation to create grandiose stories. Imperfection blocks God. If I’m inhabiting an imperfect world (and I sure as hell am) then I am blocking God. We’ve had this argument before: imperfection and Perfection cannot COEXIST.”
Alex responds to brother one, “I had to look in the urtext for this as my link-able site does not have the introduction in it. This is in relation to whether or not ACIM is a religion.
1. INTRODUCTION
U 1 A 1. This is not a course in theoretical philosophy, nor is it concerned with precise terminology in connection with origins. It is
concerned only with Atonement, or the correction of perception. The means of the Atonement is forgiveness. The structure of
“individual consciousness” is essentially irrelevant, because it is a concept representing the “original error” or the “original sin.” To
study the error itself does not lead to correction, if you are indeed to succeed in overlooking the error. And it is just this process of
overlooking at which the course aims.
U 1 A 2. All terms are potentially controversial, and those who seek controversy will find it. Yet those who seek clarification will find
it as well. They must, however, be willing to overlook controversy, recognizing that it is a defense against truth in the form of a
delaying maneuver. Theological considerations as such are necessarily controversial, since they depend on belief and can therefore be accepted or rejected. A universal theology is impossible, but a universal experience is not only possible but necessary. It is this
experience toward which the course is directed. Here alone consistency becomes possible because here alone uncertainty ends.
U 1 A 3. This course remains within the ego framework, where it is needed. It is not concerned with what is beyond all error because
it is planned only to set the direction toward it. Therefore it uses words, which are symbolic, and cannot express what lies beyond
symbols. It is always the ego that questions because it is only the ego that doubts. The course merely gives another Answer, once a
question has been raised. However, this Answer does not attempt to resort to inventiveness or ingenuity. These are attributes of the
ego. THE COURSE IS SIMPLE. It has one function and one goal. Only in that does it remain wholly consistent because only that can BE consistent.
U 1 A 4. The ego will demand many answers this course does not give. It does not recognize as questions the mere form of a question
to which an answer is impossible. The ego may ask, “How did the impossible occur?”, “To what did the impossible happen?”, and
may ask in many forms. Yet there is no answer; only an experience. Seek only this, and do not let theology delay you.”
Brother one responds, “Alex Reyenga Theology and religion are two different things. Religion today is predominantly an abomination. I agree with the definition of religion as originally defined: . “conduct indicating a belief in a divine power.”
Theology: “the study of religion. the science of religion, study of God and his relationship to humanity.”
The Course is meant to lead us — not to the same beliefs — to the same EXPERIENCE.”
Alex responds to brother one, “Strange, when I google the definition of religion I get the following: the belief in and worship of a superhuman controlling power, especially a personal God or gods; “ideas about the relationship between science and religion” and a particular system of faith and worship. “the world’s great religions” and a pursuit or interest to which someone ascribes supreme importance. “consumerism is the new religion””
Brother one responds, “Alex Reyenga I have no problem whatsoever with you not defining the Course as a religion. It’s not actually an argument for me because it doesn’t matter one way or the other to me how people define it.”
My response to brother one, “Brother one, you stated, “Sabrina Reyenga You are defining healing as a cancer-free body. That’s perfectly fine. I was merely stating that that’s not how the Course defines healing.”
I do not define healing as being cancer free. This is your judgment and assumptions at play there. I shared an “EXAMPLE” of “Healing” by turning within to Holy Spirit and only Holy Spirit for Guidance and the “HEALING” occurred when I accepted that which Holy Spirit would point out to me as being Truth after telling me to heal myself. It was in those moments TRUE HEALING would occur for me. For it was in those moments I was given complete understanding of the choices I had made to believe and how those choices effected me on ALL LEVELS of my BEING and PERCEIVING everything to be.
The “HEALING” which was received occurred on ALL LEVELS simultaneously as I accepted what Holy Spirit showed me and changed my mind about what I had been taught and chose to believe. I accepted RESPONSIBILITY for every choice, decision, judgmental opinion and belief I chose for me and accepted only I may define me. In letting go all I had been taught and chosen to believe I was now open to choose to be and believe as Holy Spirit was Teaching Me. I am a Sovereign Being with Free Will which allows me to be Self Governing so Self Reliant. No one has authority over me, for I AM the AUTHORITY of ME.
As I had said earlier, “I did heal myself. For it is the very act I chose of turning within and questioning my choices to believe which released me from my pain and suffering I had created within me. The very act of choosing again, is one taking responsibility for themselves and what they are choosing to believe. All Holy Spirit does is hold the door open and points out the Truth, you are the one in control of you and what you experience. If you have pain and disease it is a choice you make to believe. It was Holy Spirit saying to me when I asked to be healed which shifted my perspectives and how I was perceiving. Holy Spirits words to me where, “HEALER, Heal Thyself!”, which is what I did!””
Brother one responds, “Sabrina Reyenga No need to convince me. Nothing to prove.”
My response to brother one, “Try actually reading what was shared. I clarified exactly what healing is.”
Brother one responds, “Sabrina Reyenga I read your comment dear. I’m not that slow. You clarified exactly what you believe healing is.”
My response to brother one, “You are incorrect in your assumptions. My response clarified it and your response was less than a minute AFTER I had posted. NO ONE reads that fast.”
Brother one responds, “Sabrina Reyenga I do sweetie. Maybe you wanted me to savor your words longer because you believe your story holds special meaning. I read you loud and clear. You are not healed (as ACIM describes healing, which is Atonement), you are merely cancer-free.”
My response to brother one, “As I stated you assume and you have not read what was shared. If you had, you would understand exactly what I was sharing of the process of healing and how it occurs and what it actually entails. It is not the removal of diseases which is the healing. It was just the proof what I was being shown was the Truth. The removal of the diseases was the result of healing my mind of all I had chosen to believe.
Your cognitive dissonance proceeds you here. You assume, judge and refuse to consider your brothers may perceive and experience their reality differently than you do. You negate their experiences just as you negate your own. The world does not disappear in a puff to be replaced by a new one. What changes is your purview of all you were taught to believe so perceive everything to be. You change and the world changes with you, because how you perceive it to be changes as you change your mind about it and yourself.
You are not ready nor willing to heal yet. Your choices to believe have encased you in a cage which limits you and your ability to perceive. Until you are willing to turn within and question your choices, all you do is propagate your egoistic beliefs. You beat your brothers down with the book you hold in your hands which you have chosen to blindly follow and believe in without question.
Blessings on your journey to healing. You have a very long road ahead of you, based on this dialogue had here. Good night to you.”
Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.