Hello world. The following was written 8/03/2021.
I found myself responding to a brothers calls for love this morning. They are seeking the healing of that which has been experienced on their journey in trials, traumas and tribulations from the experiences of war and the fears which have stayed with them from those experiences.
My brother shares, “places like Vietnam 70–71… now that was often fear… and it wasn’t all in my mind… just saying…and it’s taken a lot of years and processing to shift it….my body still jumps at loud bangs…”
My response, “Hello brother. On my own journey I have had to look at the mental, emotional, physical and sexual abuses I experienced from 9 months old into my early 20’s. I found myself facing multiple cancers and other diseases. Told I was dying and nothing could be done for me by the medical industry who had me on 14 pills 4 times a day with a broken body from a motorcycle accident back in 2004.
I found myself bedridden and then wheelchair bound for over a year. During that time I was hearing Voiceless Voices talking to me about what I was experiencing mentally, emotionally and physically in pain, suffering and the tormenting thoughts running through my mind telling me I was a burden and better off dead.
I was in denial of who I AM and that which I have always been able to do. My family was Roman Catholic and considered me evil and demon possessed from age 2 when I had the dead coming to me asking for help. I am a natural psychic intuitive empath and a clear open trans channel. The Voiceless Voices I was hearing was the Voice of Holy Spirit within me.
Holy Spirit was talking to me within me and outside of me. I asked God and Holy Spirit how to get out of the bullshit I was in or I was going to checkout. I was done being used, abused and tossed away like a piece of offal. Their response was to have me look at every experience I ever had which had stayed with me from birth. Holy Spirit would fold time and space so I could witness those experiences as a third person. In doing so I was able to see where I was standing in judgment and where I was accepting another’s judgments as being the Truth and defining who I was and was to be.
I had a lot of instances of the dark night of the Soul. I had to willingly face myself head on without fear, judgments or recriminations for that which I had been choosing or accepting as being true. My first judgment came at 9 months old. I judged what I was experiencing in being force fed and then kicked into a brick fireplace being killed as defining who I was and how I was to be treated. I made those judgments at 9 months old. My next judgments were at 10 months when I was being digitally raped by a family member.
As Holy Spirit folded space and time showing me these experiences I had, I took a step back and questioned what I was being shown. I found myself asking my mother if these events actually occurred. Her response was one of shock and surprise for she didn’t think I would ever remember any of those events as I was so young. Each one really happened and Holy Spirit was showing me the TRUTH in those moments. He was also showing where I made my own first judgments of what I was experiencing on my journey.
I took a leap of faith that day and began asking in earnest for Holy Spirit to show me all of the things I have experienced and the misconceptions or judgments I was holding onto and believing defined me and my reality. When I asked I received. I had to ask first though each time, to be shown and each time I was answered when I asked. As I looked at each experience and accepted responsibility for how I was choosing to judge it to be I found myself healing a sickness or disease within me without medications or surgeries. I literally healed two forms of cancer and other major diseases without modern medications or surgeries by looking at all Holy Spirit placed before me to look at, in personal life changing experiences or traumas, trial and tribulations to be more precise.
It may sound like woo woo, but what I state is TRUE, TRUE. Turn within your own heart and mind and start a dialogue with the Holy Spirit that is within you. Holy Spirit is your Guide and the BRIDGE between you and God. I am not speaking of the Bible God either. For that God is the antithesis to what God actually is. The bibles god is angry, vengeful, hateful, jealous, greedy, murderous, totalitarian and will kill its own people if they do not conform and comply with its dictates. That is not who God really is.
God is LOVE, God is an observer who watches us and that which we are choosing to accept so believe in. God does not judge us our choices to pretend to be what we are not. He understands we are playing pretend here. We are but actors on a stage donning a costume to pretend to be who we are not for the experience of it.
I AM a Spiritual writer and have been writing articles about my own journey and the healing I have received when I willingly looked at all I was choosing to believe in. I share my articles on many platforms and my own website SabrinaReyenga.com. Google me and that which I share brother. You may find what I share and the shifting perspectives given helpful in healing thyself on your own journey. I offer a different perspective to view all experiences had from.
Consider the first two weeks of lessons in the ACIM workbook. They point out how everything you think you know to be true has been taught to you by someone else as what they believe all to be. Everything you know was taught to you. How do you know what you believe in is actually real or true? If you are honest with yourself, you don’t know. You, like me and the rest of Humanity, never stopped to question whether there was any validity in Truth to what they taught us. Its a catch 22, which mind screws us at first until we are able to step back and see all from a different perspective or view point.”
Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.