Hello world. The following was written 7/19/2015.
I found myself staring at a reflection I did not recognize. I had donned a mask I hadn’t seen in many years. It had me mesmerized for I was seeing someone who was not there, staring back at me.
Feeling kind of strange right now. I did something today I have not done in a very long time. I wore makeup. I did the whole thing too. Liquid foundation, cover up, powder, eye shadow, liner, mascara. I did it all. When I walked into the office and asked my Husband, Alex, how do I look, he says I look scary. He isn’t used to me wearing makeup.
The most I usually do is lipstick. This did not give me much confidence. Of course I wasn’t quite done yet either. I asked him why am I scary looking. He said I had no color. I looked pale to him.
HAHAHA! I had my foundation on and my eyes almost done. I had no blush or lipstick on yet. About 15 minutes later I finished up. I ask again how do I look. His answer, “I don’t know. I am not used to you wearing makeup. It looks different is all.”
Why the makeup you ask? Well, today we met up with our nephew and did something of a photo shoot for our business. Afterwards we went out for dinner and drinks. We talked about updating our website for better ad hits and other business opportunities which may be available out there. We had a great time and a great conversation.
So, what is feeling so strange in all of this? I suppose part of it is, every time I catch of glimpse of my reflection I am not recognizing myself. I am startled by what I see. I look younger and thinner. My coloring was more even today. Usually my cheeks are rosy and covered in freckles. Makeup seems to smooth it all out. For a second or two I thought I was seeing a stranger looking back at me. My first thought, wow she is pretty. Then I realize I am looking at myself in the mirrored wall of the restaurant. I liked how my face looked, I felt pretty too. I almost felt like one of those glamour models.
Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.