Hello world. The following was written 6/2/2015.
My ego wants me fearful. It wants me to worry if I can pay the bills. It wants me to worry about what others think of me. It wants me to curl up in a ball and cry in terror the world is out to get me. My ego wants me to believe I am a victim of the world I see. I am bad, wrong, misguided, crazy, and this list goes on and on.
When fear takes hold, often we are not aware of it. We are in a reactive state in those moments. We are judging subconsciously. Consider for a moment the thoughts racing through your mind in those moments. What are they? Where did they come from? Why are you believing this? When these things come up I ask myself, what is it I am placing my faith and belief into.
When I started A Course in Miracles in 2013 I asked myself this, what am I placing my faith and belief into? What gives me faith to believe there is a God, Jesus, or Holy Spirit? Where does my belief and faith really come from? When I really looked within my heart and mind to answer these questions a dawning realization came to me. Nothing I have ever read, seen, or heard someone say has given me faith or belief in God. Not a single one. Then what is it giving me this faith?
The more I look, the more I see it is my experiences throughout my life which have given me this faith and belief there is a God. I did not find it in the concepts put forth in a book. I did not find it in the opinions given by others. I did not find it in a movie. I found it walking down a street seeing a beautiful butterfly. Picking up a gallon of milk at the grocery store. Saying goodbye to a loved one and watching the arrival of new life.
It is in my everyday life experiences I see God and build Faith He is there working in my life. When I place my trust in Him, I no longer need to worry about anything. My bills get paid, food gets bought, and life continues when I accept and allow all to be as it is without judging it so no longer get in my own way. I am making an active choice these days. I am choosing to accept and allow and follow the guidance I receive.
Guidance I receive based on the faith and belief I have experienced which shows me there is a God. I know now what it is I believe in and who I am willing to follow. By asking myself what it is I truly believe in and am placing my faith into I found my Truth with Holy Spirit. God is real. He will provide for me all my needs. I just have to have faith and allow Him to guide me. Everything is for my benefit. Everything…
Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.