Hello world. The following was written 4/1/2016.
I woke up this morning feeling hot and clammy. Within a few moments I went from overheated to feeling ice cold and shivering. I was feeling very irritable, nauseous, achy, and bitchy in the extreme. I got up out of bed to start my day grudgingly.
As I turn the computer on and start looking at emails and then Facebook I recognize my temper is getting shorter and shorter. I am reading post after post of people with their heads in the proverbial sand or up someone else’s ass. Not a single one of them are willing to go within and look at this shit they are believing in to be true.
I am feeling an overwhelming sense of frustrated anger at these people who are holding back the rest of Humanity with their refusal to look within at what they are holding forth as being the Truth. How they continue to perpetrate and perpetuate their egoistic judgmental-isms on everyone around them.
Am I being judgmental right this minute? Some will say I am. Others will say I am simply being observant. The impression I am being given is no one can move forward alone. It is an all or none thing that is happening here. If even one Being refuses to see the Truth of what it is they are doing no one gets out of here as long as that person is still in their body. They are going to weigh down the entirety of Humanity with their singular resistance to accept responsibility for the things they have chosen to place their faith, trust, and belief into.
Like I stated above, I woke up feeling really bitchy today. I have apparently reached a point of understanding if these people do not step up their game for Humanity’s sake, then they need to consider just dying already so the rest of us can move on with this process.
Start accepting you are responsible for everything you have experienced in your life. It was your choice and decision to JUDGE it the way you have. You have created this Hell you are living in. No one else has done anything to you. ACCEPT IT! IT IS THE TRUTH! If you can’t accept it, then die already. Obviously life is not precious enough to you if you are continuing to believe in the bullshit you were taught.
I am seriously at a point of no longer wanting to hear a single word from anyone’s mouth unless they are SHARING A PERSONAL EXPERIENCE OF HEALING WITH TRUTH! Stop regurgitating other people’s bullshit ideas because they sound nice. Stop pointing fingers, placing blame and spouting off a bunch of gibberish that has no fucking meaning. Start sharing your personal experiences and the lessons you have actually learned from them. Don’t sit here talking about concepts and ideas you have NO BASIS of belief in other than, “Oh, that sounds nice. I think I will believe in that today.”
Start showing how it is these things are True for you. How do they prove themselves to be True in your life? I have been doing ACIM for four years now. In that time I have been healed of every disease I have ever been diagnosed with. I went from sitting in a wheelchair or walking with a walker or cane to walking on my own two feet unaided. I am sharing my experiences with the proof of how it has all been proven True in my personal life.
I have spent the past three weeks dealing with sciatica pain. Through all of it I have looked within at the things I was thinking and believing in as Truth. I saw for myself my beliefs. I recognized I would have been screaming at God asking why I was being punished in the past. This is what I have been doing these last weeks. Looking within at my pain and suffering and seeing the Truth of my beliefs. Seeing how I would judge myself as weak, useless, less than a woman and so forth. All because I was in pain and unable to do anything for myself or my family.
I do not hold back or sugar coat my words for anyone. Not even my own family. So, do not think I am going to hold back for any one of you for any reason. I will continue to be my authentic bitchy irritable grouchy self. I will continue to state my Truth as it is being shown to me. If you do not like it, don’t read it. There is the door, don’t let it smack you in the ass on your way out.
People have been doing this course for 30+ years and are still regurgitating the same bullshit beliefs day after day. I have yet to hear even one of them share an absolute Truth of a lesson they learned through this course. Yet they continue to call themselves teachers. All they teach are lies. All they believe in are lies! None of them have stopped to question what they are choosing to believe in or has been taught to them! They are the Blind leading the Blind!
Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.