Hello world. The following was written 1/27/2018.
Today has been a very strange and long day. Woke up around 6:30 this morning. We had to be on a job site by 8:30 AM today. We made a stop at the bank on our way out to pull some money for a buddy of ours. As we were saying our goodbyes in preparation of going our separate ways a man appeared out of nowhere and walked up to us.
As we were talking I had been looking past our buddy towards the main road across the parking lot of the shopping center to gauge the traffic. I turned and looked at my Husband Alex and then turned back towards our buddy and the road. I literally turned my head and said two words, “You ready?” to which he nodded. I turned my head back and this guy was around two hundred feet from us walking towards us. He literally appeared out of nowhere in front of us.
He stopped, looks at me and says, “Seriously, are you serious?” He laughs and then says, “Are you serious? I need a program. (I believe he said his name was Michael but not sure.) I was just asking God for a Miracle. I was walking and thinking about taking this razor blade and slicing my wrist or my throat…”
All three of us had stopped talking and had turned towards this guy when he walked up and started talking and waving around a bare razor blade as he demonstrates the act of slicing his own throat. I found myself responding to him telling him,” You are needed here. You have value and purpose here even if you are not aware of it. Your life is of value and you do have a reason for being and being here. Everything you have experienced has been of benefit to you. You would not be who you are if you had not had those experiences. You have value and you are worthy. Death is not the answer and you know this brother.”
The man started pouring his heart out about his trials and tribulations with homelessness, drugs, and probation. Our buddy stepped up and started sharing his own experiences with him of how he himself has been dealing with issues with drugs and homelessness and how he is going into a program himself. That there are programs out there to help him if he asks. Our buddy then asked him for the razor blade as he too, told him he did not want to do that. The man handed him that blade and our buddy immediately hugged him. Our buddy had just been pouring his heart to us about his own troubles when this man walked up. In those moments his own trials were gone as he helped that man.
A few moments later my Husband and I got into our car as our buddy walked over to a garbage can to throw away that razor blade. I had been watching the man as he stood there a moment before turning to walk away. I glanced over to our buddy who was almost to the garbage and turned back and the man was gone. He freaking vanished. I seriously started craning my neck around looking for him and he was nowhere in sight.
Now as I am thinking about that encounter I am beginning to think that man was no ordinary man. As quickly as he appeared he was gone. The downward spiral our buddy had been going through seemed to have been stopped and forgotten as he looked at what he just experienced. Another Soul who seemed to be in more pain and suffering than he was. It was beautiful to see the Light come back into our buddy’s eyes. His hopelessness fall away some as a renewed hope kindled within him in those moments.
Was he an Angel in disguise? We may never know. Yet something says he may well have been.
Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.