Hello world. The following was written 01/24/2016.
In making these ACIM lesson videos with my Husband we have had a call for love in the form of someone saying they are going to commit suicide. Stating their Higher Self has told them they are done here and it is time for them to come home. Stating they are done with this world of illusion. They have forgiven and are at peace and are being called to kill themselves. They are saying they can no longer stand this world of illusion they find themselves in.
In all my years of pain and suffering I have contemplated suicide many times. I have talked freely of this on many occasions. I have also died and been resuscitated over 100 times in my life complete with out of body experiences with Spirits and Angels communicating with me during those times. Each time they told me I had a choice to continue on here or move on to another life. I had the choice to stay or go. Each time I thought to go Holy Spirit showed me why I wanted to stay. He showed me another way and I chose each time to continue here.
I have come to understand Higher Self or Holy Spirit will never ask me to kill myself. If someone is believing He would ask that of them they are not in their right mind. For Holy Spirit is a call to life not death. Thoughts of suicide are mired in a belief that is not true. That something has gone wrong or I am bad and must be punished. I am to look at what I am believing and placing my faith and trust into if suicide is what is uppermost in my mind.
The response I was guided to give to that person was that the voice they are listening to is not the Holy Spirit I hear. For He would never call for me to kill myself. That is not His way. Whatever they may be experiencing that has them seeing the world as they do is a belief that they are holding forth as being true. If they were truly at peace then death is not what they would be seeking but life and love. The turmoil they voiced was not that of one at peace within themselves. Though they stated they have done this course and the work within it every word they said to me spoke the opposite.
The understanding Holy Spirit gave me was they had only looked at the surface of what they perceived. They refused to look deeper into their beliefs out of fear. They decided for themselves to pick and choose what it was they needed to look at and what the answer would be. Holy Spirit is saying they have attached themselves to a concept or an idea and have no understanding of it’s true depths and meaning. For if they had done the work suicide would never have entered their minds. In everything they would recognize as Holy Spirit has told them that they do it to themselves. No one is doing anything to them. They made the choice to believe as they do. They may also decide to stop believing in it and choose again choosing differently this time.
As the person continued to say they are choosing death, they also started to try and accuse me of judging them and suicide in general as being bad. They forgive me my judgments, as if I was responsible for the choices they are making. I asked them to quote me where I said that suicide was bad for I would see this judgment I have made. They cannot do so for I never said that. They are choosing to think I am attacking them in some way. I answered their questions as I was guided to by Holy Spirit. I shared with them the understanding I have been given through my own personal experiences. In everything I do I share from what I know and have experienced. I do not quote people or lines from a book. That is not where my faith, trust, and belief in Truth comes from. I found that only in one place folks. I found that within myself when I did the work He laid before me.
I can only speak the Truth and from my own personal experiences and the lessons I have learned. In extending the Truth I learn by sharing my experiences I offer my brothers another way of seeing their own situations. To see there may be another way of looking at things. That there is Light at the end of that long dark tunnel. I am responsible for my thoughts, feelings/emotions, beliefs, and experiences. No one else is responsible for what I choose to experience here. That choice is mine and mine alone. In this same way the choices you make are yours and no one else may take that choice from you. In all things we do everything to ourselves with what it is we are choosing to believe in as being true.
Do the work folks. Hand everything to Holy Spirit and do as He guides you to do. Do not pick and choose and decide what is or is not of value to look at. You cannot hold anything back from Him if you truly wish to be healed. Please do the work.
Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.