Hello world. The following was written 10/02/2017.
Spent the weekend working in Sacramento. We did two hours of driving to get to the location on Friday with two hours of work. Then another two hours on Sunday to get to location and around 5 hours onsite. All of these work hours would have been doubled if there was not two of us working in tandem to get the job done.
The office we were working in had just had the carpets replaced. The chemical smell was almost overwhelming in that office as was the heat. We could not get them to turn on the air conditioning in there either. By the time we finished we were both feeling irritable and tired.
On the way home we found ourselves constantly yawning and feeling very drained. When we did get home we decided to take a nap. That was around 6 PM. I woke up at around 10:20 PM. I stayed awake for maybe an hour and went back to bed. We woke up this morning around 8 AM, a little after actually. I slept for 13 hours total last night.
When we were done there at that office and had left to go home I started getting chills. All night last night I was freezing with teeth chattering at some points. I even found myself walking sideways in a daze when I had woken up at 10 the night before. The only cause we could think of for these reactions physically were those chemicals we were breathing in. My body does not do well with foreign substances at all. It literally tries to shut down as it did last night.
This morning all chills are gone and I am feeling much better. Even my body aches and pains are tolerable this morning. These reactions my body has are becoming more and more pointed for me. They are showing me just how my environment is and does effect me on multiple levels.
This awareness has been key to me maintaining balance and serenity within myself no matter what is happening around me or in me. My willingness to pay attention and internalize what I am experiencing and finding the answers within me and not out there in the world. No longer am I pointing fingers and placing blame as if I am a victim of this world I am perceiving. I recognize any reactions I may be experiencing are my own and I am responsible for them.
As I sit here this morning contemplating this experience I have had I am able to see when, where, how and why I was experiencing those things I was. I am able to see and understand what was happening within me. Looking at these types of things and questioning them has helped me to perceive my own choices and beliefs. How my choices to believe effect my over all experience in day to day life. I am the one in control and I am the one with the ability to change my own mind about these things I perceive. No one may do these things for me. I must be willing to look and do these things for myself. Make these changes within myself. Choose to change my own mind about this world I perceive.
Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.