Hello world. The following was written 12/05/2016. I have found when I am experiencing a rinse repeat cycle, there is something there which goes much much deeper than the surface chaos has chosen to expose. In those moments, when I catch myself in this pattern, I choose to look very deeply at what it is I am experiencing and ask my Guides what it is I am missing. I have found most come from an experience in childhood, where I chose to accept and believe a judgment handed to me. When I find it, I can see where I made the choices. Then I get to choose again, choosing differently this time around. This process, usually heals the issue and I do not repeat it again. I am following an Inner Guidance, which has me standing in my Light of Truth, so all may witness my journey as I am on it. I am to be an example, of being authentic in what is experienced. I am to hide, nothing. Deny nothing. I am to accept, All That Is, as it is, without judgment. I am to be the Light for my brothers, in the darkness of that which they Continue Reading
To go within, I listen to my HEART for the answers.
Hello world. The following was written 12/05/2016. Ladies and gentlemen, my Husband Alex and I have talked extensively about us having “friendships”, outside of our relationship. ALL are to be kept out in the open, with NOTHING being hidden or kept private for any reason. This includes, private emails, text messages, video chats and phone calls. If you cannot share openly in the public eye with me, then there is nothing to be shared and there is no friendship worth changing my agreement with my Husband for, EVER! My Husband and the relationship I have with him, comes before any and all. Even our perspective families. The only exception, would be God and Holy Spirit. If you cannot respect this choice we have made, then maybe it is time for you to move on. I do not have the time, inclination, nor the energy to keep secretive closed minded people, around me these days. A brother asks, “Who r u and what is your nationality and what is your present status?” My response, “I AM that I AM. I am a Human Being. I am here and aware of my existence. I am alive!” My brother states, “very logical and Continue Reading
I asked God, for a friend.
Hello world. The following was written 12/05/2016. Eighteen years ago I found myself, renting someone’s couch to sleep on. I had a job and was working. I was a single parent, at the time. I had left an abusive relationship, and was focusing on healing my fear of men. ALL MEN. My Ex was 6’6″ and he taught me, to fear and fear deeply. I tried dating women for a while. I found them to be, just as abusive as the men were. Yet they chose to do so, in a more mental and emotionally abusive way. I was done with relationships and the abuses, which came with them. At that time in my life, I decided I was done. I asked God, for a friend. I did not want, a temporary lover. I wanted a friend who would accept me, as I am. Who would love me, for me and not who they wanted me to be. Not for what, they could get from me. I wanted someone who would see me, as I am within. Who could see past my shell, to my very Soul. God’s response was to send me a friend request, from one Alex Reyenga. Continue Reading
What you seek, will not be found here.
Hello world. The following was written 12/04/2016. Thank you brother. Those are really nice compliments. You belief, I am beautiful and a sweet woman. Not sure if they constitute a declaration of love, to a married woman though. Especially on her Anniversary to her chosen spouse, of over 18 years. Appreciation for the gift of this shell, my Father the Creator has given me, should go to Him and not me. This shell, is no more than my car. It takes me where I need to go, on my journey. What is pulling you, is your own desire for what you witness here, within your own experience. What you seek, will not be found here. All that will be found here, is an example of what Truly resonates within your heart. Do not make the mistake of superimposing your own mental images over me, as who you perceive me to be. I AM NOT the image in your mind, and never will be. SEE me as I AM NOW, without the fog of your beliefs. Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.
In any situation, I must stand in my Light of Truth.
Hello world. The following was written 12/04/2016. There comes a point on ones journey, when they find themselves wanting a deeper connection. A connection, to self and to their brothers. They are no longer seeing the surface, of what is happening within them and around them. They are beginning to see, there is more to themselves and their brothers than they had ever been taught. When we reach this point, and all of us do, we find the shallowness of the connections we once had, will no longer suffice us. The materialistic needs of the world, no longer pull us. The egoistic needs and beliefs, no longer resonate within our hearts. In these moments, we learn to walk away from what no longer resonates with who we are. I am finding for myself walking away alone, does not help. Sometimes a complete cutting of ties, is needed for me to continue on my journey. Here in the world of the internet, this may take placing a block on the one who will not take no for an answer. In any situation, I must stand in my Light of Truth. I must be honest and authentic with myself, and what I Continue Reading