Hello world. The following was written 4/20/2015. “You’re…possibly legitimately going crazy.”, was a comment made to me recently. Holy Spirit had me respond with this. My response, “No, I am becoming sane. I am getting what it is Holy Spirit is telling me. These beliefs we hold onto, our thoughts, feelings and judgmental opinions, eat at us from within. Slowly eating at us until our bodies start protesting all the fears and angers we have accumulated within our minds and bodies as what we value and hold up as defining who we are. All of these things are misconceptions killing us slowly from within. Same with following what another has to say. Believing what another says defines who you are.” “How on earth do you go from “I’m tired of listening to people” to “suicide is the only alternative”? Do you not see how ridiculous of a correlation that is?” My response, “Folks really do see what they want to see. That was Holy Spirit telling me what the outcome of the choice of following and believing another would come too. A very slow painful death eating me from the inside out or fast with suicide. In Truth they are Continue Reading
I CANNOT change the world, I can only change my perceptions about it.
Hello world. The following was written 4/20/2015. A moment of clarity. When I, and I am talking about ME here, am trying to listen to and believe what my Husband is telling me is true as per his perceptions and beliefs, I find myself in extreme doubts as to my own sanity of my OWN perceptions. When my Husband is blaming me for something he is misconceiving in his own mind about a situation and constantly tells me I am thinking wrong, feeling an emotion wrong or I am not actually looking at my own shit when I honestly am looking at it and asking my Guides if this is true, all pain and suffering I am experiencing is being caused by me and my own choices to accept and believe what is being said to me. I am responsible for what I am believing in. In a nutshell we perceive what we want until we choose to see the Truth. The Truth in this case is if I continue to try listening to and believing or following the dictates of others, suicide is the only viable outcome. Point being, what I was saying earlier if I continue to listen Continue Reading
I am addicted to listening and believing everyone around me.
Hello world. the following was written 4/20/2015. I am an ADDICT! I really want to believe, listen to and follow the dictates of others and believe them when they tell me I am doing something wrong or that I am a horrible Being that is destroying their lives. I am addicted to listening to and believing everyone around me and what they say is true so defines me. Holy Spirit is telling me the more I listen to others the more I will suffer. Until I no longer can stand the pain and end it with a razor to my wrists, a rope around my neck, jumping from a cliff or ramming my car into an overpass pillar on the freeway. All options, are choices, if I continue to believe whatever I am being told is true and choose to listen to it all. Do I want to give up on me by listening to what is being said or go within and ask Holy Spirit to guide me instead. Only Holy Spirit knows the Truth and only He can guide me. My path is my own and the path they choose is theirs. I do not need to follow Continue Reading
Do I want to live or kill myself off?
Hello world. The following was written 4/20/2015. Apparently I am being judged as being broken and needing to be fixed, by quite few people out there. I am being told I am a bliss ninny in the worst possible way. Told I am not looking at or dealing with my shit as it were. The same ones saying I am codependent or am an abuser, are saying I am not really looking at or willing to look at any of my shit, because I am not willing to LISTEN to them or DO what they want me to do. Which seems to be to join with them and do what they want me to do at all times. I am not to think for myself in any way, shape or form. Only they know what is right and best for me. Apparently the consensus is I need to start drinking the kool-aide. My Inner Guide is telling me drink water, or I may find myself slitting my wrists. Do I want to live or kill myself off? Decisions, decisions, decisions. Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.