Month: April 2022

Hello world. The following was written 4/29/2015. Most people can wrap their minds around the concept and understanding when you have children and someone wants to start a relationship with you, your children are and will be part of the relationship. If the person seeking this connection will not accept your children then they are not going to accept you either. In those situations most will walk away. They recognize acceptance of all aspects of themselves and their lives must be accepted or there is no chance for complete unity. It really seems like a no brainer. If you do not accept my children then you do not accept me. Now consider your relationship with your spouse or life partner. When you join in union with another you are telling the Universe you are now committing to become one Being. One Being with one heart and one mind. The single goal to love and support each other unconditionally no matter the circumstances you may go through. To place the relationship at the top of all friendships old and new. Understanding what effects you also effects the companion you share your life with. Whatever the struggle you are not alone for Continue Reading

Hello world. The following was written 4/29/2015. The following conversation speaks of the shame and guilt we are taught to believe in when things happen to us. A brother shares, “Today I learned the difference between a pedophile and a child molester. Acceptance of pedophiles can help them to never act on their ideas so never become molesters. Having to hide and be ashamed is not helpful. I would never touch a child but I have had little girls show up in my sexual fantasies before. I was the little girl. Hahahahaha I am for a world where telling the truth is acceptable.” My response, “Thank you for sharing where you are brother. There is no need for shame, guilt or fear. I understand what it is you share. There is something that happens when one is touched at a young age an little to no pain is felt. I myself have experienced this. I recognized I enjoyed what I was experiencing in the moment. I was not ashamed or afraid until it was taught to me to be so. I had no understanding what was done was bad, wrong, sinful or that I “should” feel shame, guilt, and fear Continue Reading

Hello world. The following was written in the late 90’s and shared online 4/29/2013. Acceptance Broken and battered, falling apart. Not even sure of where to start. Should I start with my broken bones? Or should I start with my broken home? A small little child precious and caring. Pushed aside for even daring. To obtain some affection. A measure of love. Feeling unwanted, lost, and alone. Looking for love in walls of stone. Giving freely of the body. Not understanding they are Somebody. Thinking by giving they shall receive. When all they get are more injuries. Some to their bodies. Some to their minds. Some to the souls. They leave behind. They don’t seem to realize it is a trend. They keep repeating over again. Looking for love in all the wrong places. Seeing a sea of swimming faces. Locked deep inside is the love that they need. For when I love myself, then someone else can love me. Sabrina Reyenga Until I could love myself Unconditionally brother, I could not love anyone else. As long as I was in judgment of myself I was in judgment of my brothers. I have found on this journey one must learn Continue Reading

Hello world. The following was written 4/28/2018. Today I found myself being guided to join a closed group. I posted the following to help my brothers comprehend where I am at and am coming from. “Thank you all for sharing where you are at on your journeys to healing and understanding who you are and are meant to be. Nothing is as it may seem. The filters that have been placed before you are held in place on a subliminal level. Each one has been taught to you by someone else just as it was taught to them and the ones before them. You were taught to mimic those around you for acceptance and approval. Their anger, disappointments, judgments and opinions were the tools being used on you to manipulate you to their way of thinking, perceiving and believing. They did this unconsciously and unknowingly for they too did as you have chosen to do. Like you they too chose to blindly follow and believe what was being taught to them was the Truth. Taught someone else had authority over them and they were required to accept the judgments, opinions and dictates being handed to them without question. All of Continue Reading

Hello world. The following was written 4/28/2015. Been up for a little over an hour so far. Alex left for work about 30 minutes ago. Been having some interesting things happening the last couple of days. Holy Spirit has had me sitting in stillness and silence. Yesterday morning I was sitting on my patio and watched my hands adjusting the lap blanket I was using. As I was watching my hands I realized I had no idea what they were doing. I had no thoughts going through my mind. It was as if my body was moving around and I was just watching it all. Very surreal feeling. It continues as I am watching a light pattern on the ground. The feeling is similar to tunnel vision or even vertigo without the dizziness. I felt like I was looking out a very small window and was only able to see so far to each side in a slow moving car or something. So far I have had this experience of being separated from the body and just observing it a few times. Each time they seem a bit longer and stronger too. Sounds even seem distant. There is no fear Continue Reading

Hello world. The following were shared 4/27/2015. Reflection and Door. Reflection Through all the time you’re standing here. People are moving to get somewhere. You watch a stream of dying dreams. One, right after another. You stand and stare as they move somewhere. Most, just out of reach. You seem to move forward. But, you keep stepping back. Tow in the line that keeps going slack. Start to move in that direction. Without a thought to past reflection. Stop and look, for the mirror reflects. The path you took, is just the mirrors reflection. Sabrina Reyenga Door Your sobs are muffled as you cry. The tears are streaming from your eyes. A violent rending. You’re heart is in two. Your spirit is broken. What’s left of you? Your mind has shattered. You’re numb to the pain. What’s left of your soul? A bleeding stain. Beaten and battered emotionally. The door is closed. None can see. Where you laid on the floor. The puddle of blood. From your soul and mind. Small pieces of string you used to tie. Yourself together, your smiles a lie. Behind that closed door. None can see. You, yourself, you’re Humanity. Sabrina Reyenga Blessings on your Continue Reading

Hello world. The following was written 4/26/2015. My guidance is to share what experiences I have had and Holy Spirit’s guidance and processes for me to heal them. To show a different perspective from which to view what is experienced from. How my healing was and is accomplished. To show how His guidance can heal all. For a couple of weeks Alex and I had been discussing whether or not there were Guardian Angels, God, Jesus, or Holy Spirit. I was following Wicca, Druidism and Shamanism, and had an active dislike for anything to do with GOD. My childhood was very abusive in many ways. I was plagued with migraines for as long as I can remember and would have one every single day all day. I got real used to pain, and suffering silently. My path to building trust, faith, belief and healing began Feb. 14, 2004 on Valentine’s Day, when I wrecked my motorcycle. As I came up to the curve in the road I realized my brakes had failed and I wasn’t going to make it, I new I would be going through the barbed wire fence and hitting the telephone pole. Either way I was dead. Continue Reading

Hello world. The following was written 4/26/2015. On July 4, 2011 Alex and I were in a motorcycle accident. This was my second motorcycle accident. My first was in 2004. We were riding up a one lane road on a mountain at about 15 miles per hour, our tires slipped on some debris in the road as we were coming around a switch back. Our front tire hit the soft shoulder and forced the bike to high side (fall sideways up hill). My helmet landed on Alex’s should breaking off the ball joint in the cup of the shoulder joint. The bike landed on my foot and leg breaking my foot. When all was said and done we were both given pills to take on top of whatever we were already taking. My pill count was now at 14 pills 4 times a day. We both, were at the end of our roads and wanted out at this point. Holy Spirit’s guidance for me at this time was to look for a natural alternative. He had already had me change my diet to all organics and showing me things I was allergic too. I had now gotten my migraines under Continue Reading

Hello world. The following was written 4/26/2015. In the first year of trying to do A Course in Miracles with the teacher that had been chosen I had a lot of conflicts arise within me. One of the first ones were grudges and another was that I had asked for everything I was going through throughout my life. That the rapes, molestation’s, beatings, exorcisms, canings, mental and emotional abuses I experienced I asked for. I really had a hard time with these. How could I as a child or infant ask for the things done to me? As I was doing the workbook lessons and looking at the thoughts in my mind Holy Spirit gifted me with a waking vision. It was to be the first of many. I was holding a grudge against my Husband’s buddy. In the vision Holy Spirit showed my Husband’s buddy and I sitting at my kitchen table. Holy Spirit had me tell him what I was holding onto. I was holding onto him trying to get my husband to cheat on me. On him guilting and shaming my Husband to do whatever he wanted him to do with manipulations such as, “Oh I need Continue Reading

Hello world. The following was written 4/26/2015. In the act of being raped I am given a choice. I can see it as a trauma which will destroy me or as a call for the love they cannot find within themselves. It is a choice I make. In choosing love I am then able to see it as a gift instead of something which hurts me. My molesters and rapists were repeating patterns they learned from someone else. They were actively choosing to repeat the patterns. It is a choice. The picture here is in everything, we have a choice. Holy Spirit showed me my perceptions were there, because I was told this is how it is, as a child. Holy Spirit showed me the lie in this. I would not be who I am without having been through the things I have. My understanding and perceptions would not be nearly the same. The beatings, judgments and anger I received as a child were not really directed at me. They were enacting their rage out on me for what they believed and thought, they had failed to do. They were judging me in their mind as being less than whole Continue Reading