Hello world. The following was written 12/10/2014. I was talking with my Husband Alex last night about fears. I am not afraid of death. It doesn’t frighten me. I have died and been resuscitated so many times death no longer terrifies me. Yet the thought of my Husband Alex dying scares the shit out of me. The thought of being left alone to deal with life without his love and support really terrifies me. So much so that I can’t stop crying at the mere thought of it. This is actually quite strange for me, simply because being alone has never bothered me in any way before. I like my own company and the silence and stillness. To think of my Husband as no longer being here creates such an aching void in my heart that it truly feels unbearable. So much so that I feel as if I would no longer want to exist without him with me. Wow such powerful emotions. I am struggling to maintain some semblance of control here. Holy Spirit what is in this lesson for me? Is is that I can love so very deeply? Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. Continue Reading
My brothers asks.
Hello world. The following was written 12/09/2017. A brother asks, “If we are souls. Why are we doing this. Why is everybody so scared of death…..we will come back anyways they say……so why pain…. suffering…..etc etc?” My response, “What is the purpose of going to school? Consider that and you will have an answer as to why we come here. We come here to learn. This manifestation of reality would be a school of experience in extremes. We come in with a blank slate and have to relearn who we are. We are here to learn the discernment of Truth, of what resonates within as our Truth. As for why you are afraid of death, it is what you have chosen to believe in. The belief is taught and it is based in fear of the unknown. It is a choice made by the Individual to believe. I myself am not afraid of death. I have died and been resuscitated many many times in my life. From birth, a year on up into my 40’s. I learned long ago death is not real. Everything I had been taught about it was not true. My life did not end there. Each Continue Reading
When you love yourself unconditionally, you learn to love your brothers in the same way.
Hello world. The following was written 12/09/2016. A brother posted a meme today that said, “How nice would it be to have someone be so in love with you and just wants you all the time.” My response, “There are two sides to it. Consider this idea from all sides. Place yourself as the one giving of the love and then as the one receiving it. Now, consider this, you do not feel the same way as the one giving to you. They love you, just not in the same way or as deeply. Now put yourself in the others place of receiving the love and not feeling the same way as you. It is a mixed bag. May I suggest learning to love yourself first. When you love yourself unconditionally, you learn to love others in the same way. In doing so you teach others how to love you and how to love themselves. I have been there loving someone in the way you described. Problem is they did not feel the same. That caused a lot of pain at first for me. I had thousands of thoughts running through my mind. Thoughts about unworthiness and a belief that Continue Reading