Hello world. The following was written 11/02/2018. What is this for and what would you have us do with this? Where would you have us go and how would you have us get there? What would you have us do once there? How does one keep their fear at bay? How does one stop the mind from spinning its wheels fruitlessly? What would you have one do in such a situation as this when it seems all hope has been lost? The cinch has been tightening for a long time now. The weight of the stress of trying to make ends meet in a world that has made that all but impossible, lends one towards a feeling of hopelessness and defeat. Struggling day in and day out never knowing if you will have enough. It isn’t because you’re not working. You work, yet the pay barely covers anything. Like a patchwork quilt you have gotten good at patching everything until the next time. You keep holding on by the skin of your teeth. Every month things are getting paid seemingly. Yet there is always something that has to wait because there just isn’t enough. Well I am done with this Continue Reading
Letting go.
Hello world. The following was written 11/02/2016. Brother, there comes a point on this journey when we find ourselves against a wall or at a crossroads of sorts. When everything we have been seeking out there in the world comes to no avail. When at every turn it seems we must battle our way through each moment. When it feels as if nothing we do is good enough, because all we receive are judgments from all whose path we are crossing. When we find ourselves considering suicide as a possible way out of the nightmarish illusion we are in. We reach a point of having to let go. In these situations I have found, that is the time I have turned within. I have gone within fully and deeply asking questions as I let go of all I thought I new and believed in. It is within, that the answers I had been seeking out there began to come to me. When I stepped back from the rat race of listening to and believing in the judgments and opinions of others. Everyone will reach this point on their journeys. Everyone will find themselves looking at every experience they have had Continue Reading
Why are you allowing someone else’s beliefs to dictate who you will be in this life?
Hello world. The following was written 11/02/2015. Something to consider, the words that lift one up can also be used to tear one down. Seeking out the opinions or judgments of another to validate you creates a viscous cycle in a belief of unworthiness. If they do not validate you, you are unworthy to be seen or heard by them. All hinges on the purview of someone else approving of who you are and choose to be. Hearing words such as, You are wonderful, You are strong, I believe in you, I have faith in you, You are a wonderful leader, and You are so capable. As much as these words may lift one up which they do. When does one start realizing the judgments and opinions of others are no more than a way for us to continually punish ourselves? Seeking out the approval of another does no more than hand away your own power and control. We are taught to seek out these judgments and then to give them as well. The judgments and opinions of others do not define who or what you are. Only you may define you. Why are you allowing someone else’s beliefs to Continue Reading
How do I explain an understanding, a change in perception and perspective?
Hello world. The following was written 11/02/2015. My path crossed with someone recently who asked me a question which has been playing in the back of my mind ever since. They asked me, “How everything I have gone through or will go through is for my benefit? How can losing my handbag of been of benefit?” My answer to the latter was, if you had not misplaced your purse you never would have met my Husband and I. As for the first question, how do I explain an understanding? A change in perception and perspective. A letting go of a belief in something so deeply rooted you allowed yourself to believe that, THAT, is what defines you. THAT, is who and what you are. Holy Spirit has been drilling into me lately that these judgments I have been holding onto from the cradle are what I have been using to define who and what I am or should I say, am not. Growing up children are taught they should do this or that. Some is based on gender. Some on fears. All are based off of judgments and opinions handed out from one generation to the next for centuries. These Continue Reading