Hello world. The following was written 8/13/2016. As a child I experienced many things that were considered to be evil so were feared by the church and my family. The abilities or gifts I was given caused me a lot of pain and suffering growing up. Because of my families purviews and the church’s purviews of such things I was punished if and when I would mention what I was experiencing. Their fear caused me to try to shut down my abilities. I would deny they were there and what I was experiencing to keep from being punished mentally, emotionally and physically. I learned I would be accepted if I would deny who and what I AM. My family was Catholic and held a belief that I was possessed by demons and needed to be exorcised and the demons beaten out of me when I would speak of seeing the dead and hearing them. It took me many years to come to terms with these abilities I am given. To accept myself as I AM without judgments. One of the things that helped me do this were the following passages from Scripture that were shared with me by a medium Continue Reading
Acceptance
Hello world. The following was written in the 90’s and published in 2016. Acceptance Broken and battered, falling apart. Not even sure of where to start. Should I start with my broken bones? Or should I start with my broken home? A small little child precious and caring. Pushed aside for even daring. To obtain some affection. A measure of love. Feeling unwanted, lost, and alone. Looking for love in walls of stone. Giving freely of the body. Not understanding they are Somebody. Thinking by giving they shall receive. When all they get are more injuries. Some to their bodies. Some to their minds. Some to the souls. They leave behind. They don’t seem to realize it is a trend. They keep repeating over again. Looking for love in all the wrong places. Seeing a sea of swimming faces. Locked deep inside is the love that they need. For when I love myself, then someone else can love me. Sabrina Reyenga This poem describes much of what I went through growing up. How an accident breaking my body had me looking within at what I had experienced in my life. How the breaking of my body had me looking at Continue Reading
Fly
Hello world. The following was written in the early 90’s and published in 2016. Fly Throughout my life I’ve seen a flaw. I’ve been the fly upon the wall. Seldom spoken to and never received. In any circle socially. I’ve watched and listened to old and young. All tell me I’m to old or to young. I’ve tried people my age. Yet people see me as to strange. Because I have an open mind. They tend to think I am blind. I will not let them see my tears. As their words cut and shred my ears. When I am shunned socially. I feel my Soul begin to bleed. I am the fly upon the wall. That you KILL with no thought at all. Sabrina Reyenga Holy Spirit has been playing this poem from my twenties in my mind. At the time I was watching a group of young people outside of a coffee shop. They stood in a circle shoulder to shoulder. On the out skirts of that circle were 3 or 4 people not being permitted to join in fully. When questions would be directed to them it was an over the shoulder comment never fully engaging the Continue Reading