Hello world. The following was written 6/29/2018. I had a brother share where they are at on their journey. What they shared was the perspective and understanding of how they will never be good enough and will always be judged as lacking by those around them. What came through is the pain and suffering they are experiencing at this belief that they are not Worthy. What another is expressing does not define you. You are always worthy no matter what another chooses to believe. A brother shares, “I’m always either used, replaced or forgotten. I understand that. But what I don’t understand is why. I always try my hardest to make other people happy, and to mean something to them. But it never works. I’m always worth shit to everyone, every time.” My response, “Hello brother. On ones journey they will find themselves faced with a recognition that no matter what they do they do not get the validation for their existence from anyone outside of them. All they seem to receive out there in the world are judgmental recriminations that they would dare to exist. One will find themselves stepping away from those Beings and the box they would Continue Reading
Feeling angry at the mind screw I was put through.
Hello world. The following was written 6/29/2014. I had just finished doing the workbook section of A Course in Miracles with a “teacher” who was not who they professed themselves to be. When I would ask if they were upset with me, they would say no. If I would share my own experiences and the understandings I was getting, they would tell me I was wrong and confused. That I did not know what I was talking about and that they were the teacher. This caused me so much internal angst, pain and suffering that I truly thought I was loosing my mind. I was being given visions, hearing voiceless voices, feeling the emotions, pain and suffering of those around me. When I would share this I was told I needed to seek medical help and get on some pills. They would negate my natural abilities as a deficiency that needed to be eradicated. Because I perceived differently I was broken and needed to be fixed in their mind. This caused me to step away from them and anyone else who would try to enclose me into a box of their making. “Man I feel as if I just had Continue Reading